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This is exactly what I'm talking about. You can't be so negative all the ******** time.

I do love you, as a friend, that is love, if it's not good enough for you, I can stop being honest by not saying it.

YOU CAN TURN TO ME, IT'S OKAY.

YOU ARE SPECIAL, YOU'RE BEING RIDICULOUS JUST BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO BE YOUR GIRLFRIEND. Do you like making me feel like s**t? Because that's what you're doing when you do this.

And if you attempted suicide, I would either A) feel like it's my ******** fault, or B) be fed up. I've had enough of this ******** drama just because I don't want a serious relationship. This is exactly why I didn't want to date anyone.

I'm not depressed because you don't want to be my damn girlfriend, at this point, I've given up hope on that one. It's because every time I try to at least be a little close, you pull away and that hurts. I'm not meaning to make you feel like s**t, I'm trying to make me feel better so I don't push you away. When you told me that's what it was doing, I started balling, just because I have a medical condition, my best friend is being "pushed away" by me, and it's not even my damn fault! you make me feel like s**t every time this happens, you make me feel like I'm just not good enough and that's why I get tempted to do that s**t, because if I'm not good enough for the person that means the most to me, then why am I alive?

When did I ever say you weren't good enough, for anything or anyone??