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Is it me or is the light killing me? There are two sides of me,
1.) The totally cheerful
2.) Dark.
My friends in real havent seen the 'other me'. My totally sad self. I think have no purpose in this world. Hiding in the dark seems to make me feel ok. I can't help but try to hide this and be as happy as i possibly can. Then who knows what I might be feeling. Happy for a minute then hate the next. This picture I found fills me with hate. I cant help but go into my cabinent and pull a knife out and kill this person but I cant. This person was my friend. Yet there is someone else on my mind that I cant seem to forget.

Another thought I have is I think im a truely a boy trapped in a females body, but Im born as a girl and thts what I'll be...

Ugh, this pain freaking hurts. My elbow is a piece of s**t and I cant do anything. I'd rather die than get my surgery. Another one in like in probably a month...I'd rather die because what good reason is there for me to be here. Im just a stupid idiot. I burst into tears at the stupidest times and hate people i shouldnt. Those people I secretly hate may not even notice it. Crying makes me weaker so I might as well smack myself...My wanna be self..thts just a wish