Today was s**t... I've been feeling more depressed then usual lately, so adding all this ******** stress onto it isn't making me feel better, I feel like... If I hadn't met them in the first place, they wouldn't have been fighting, then if I hadn't met her then Brooke wouldn't be threatening to kick her a**, because I'm just feeding the ******** fire... then no one seems to take a ******** second just to talk to me and see how I feel, and I can't tell her because if I try, she acts like I shouldn't feel this way, but I do, I want to die, and it's been getting worse lately... I've been dreaming of suicide and mass murder. My self harm has also came back, mainly on my legs but also on my wrists and hands... I feel like I just keep ******** everything up, and that I'm so ******** useless that if I did kill myself, no one would notice, or no one would care. I feel like every time someone says something nice to me, that they're lying to make me feel better, when it really isn't... it makes me feel like I'm just annoying...
 BlackDarko · Thu Mar 17, 2011 @ 12:47am · 2 Comments |
