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My sister, Brittany ran away.
While she was gone, me, my brother, and 2 kids that were our neighbors broke into my uncles house,but 2 bats flew out so we didnt go in. One night my dad got a call fom my sister's boyfriend's mom. She asked if they could send Brittany back to school. He said no and we all went to pick her up at her boyfriends apartment. On the way, my dad told us that someone broke into my uncles house. He said he thought it was brittany and jake (her bf) i felt guilty so i told. A while later she got pregnant then had a baby, then later moved out. She still visits, or used to. The last time i saw her was september 2010. She never looked at her voicemails and my dad got mad and told her to piss off. They're both stubborn. Neither will forgive or apologize.Now my dad refers to her as my foster sister.
My dad always expects things out of me and my brother, without even asking. My brothers failing school. Im acing it. He says im his last hope. he tells me not to let him down and he says i wont. and the truth is i wont. Even if i want too.
Some months ago i got touched. Innopropreatley.And in public (at my house(-
he:picked me up by my area and my back and lifted me in air
he:stopped me while walking, his hand was on my belly, he let me go and stopped me again, this time his hand was on my area, he did it again a couple more times.
he:tried *cuddling* with me in my bed
he:hugged mewith a wet shirt and swimsuit trunks on
he: followed me
he did more but, well i just dont wanna talk about.
he: is my half brother. he: is in the national gaurd.

The last time I hung out with a friend besides my bff was in july 2010 i think. I didnt do anything wrong. theres more to it but i dont want to explain....
because of my *friends* i got obsessed with reading.

Im so shocked at what happened to my life i cant even cry. My heart is cold. I have to make myself cry if i want to. Did I mention my bff isnt even in my grade. well yeah, im pretty much lonely. at least she rides my bus.

well i guess all this doesnt sound do bad, but in my head theres more. especially the part im leaving out that makes me hate myself.

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