i cant even tell my own dad go ******** yourself because he throws the ill just leave card in my face when i really do want to leave yet i dont because he cant make the connection that i love both my parents, along with not being able to tell him that id rather not because he is having chest pains once again that he was having when he had his first and second heart attack, i hang the idea over my head that he has done so much for me yet i cant do this ONE thing for him and then when i look at it i do alot for him yet he doesn't know it because he also has a memory problem along with me, i cant even member most of my childhood from age 7 back. i also tell myself that im lucky to have him here as it is because he had a blood disease that some ******** chick in Florida gave him 7 years ago before he came back from florida which he was treated hear in new york with the more harsh kemo that you can inject in your body, he lost his muscles, most of his hair, and couldn't even function at times and yet he made it threw all that yet i cant do this one thing for him, im struggling to do this when he has gone threw all of that! ...that's how he reacts if i dont want to do something. i think he is right at times, maybe he was right when he said im sick of you kid on the way to pick me up from Tyler's house the night i was sick and couldn't get back home when mom was to smoked up to care about me getting home. he has said so many ******** things that have really torn me apart and yet he doesn't understand most of it. when he calls me kid or ******** face, or anything of the sort, i feel like my older brother Micheal, like my dad just abandoned me im father less, like my father doesn't even want to admit im his kid, why couldn't he just say my name...
(dad has been disease free for about 5 years now after taking the kemo and 4 out of the 5 people died from this kemo therapy ...dads the only one that survived.)
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