I remember falling asleep and then I had thought I woke up.
I walked out of my room and saw Tommy asleep on the couch. I walked back into my room and got dressed... came back out and sat down on the love seat across from him. I just watched him sleep for afew minutes, wondering why he was here. My mom walked out of her room and sat next to me.
"He called at midnight, so i picked him up at the park, he's going to be asleep for a while he was dead drunk when i got there." She whispered so not to wake him.
"I'll stay here with him... you should go back to sleep." I replied.
She left me sitting there with him, and i could tell something was wrong.
I laid down on the loveseat and dozed off... when i woke up he was sitting up on the couch watching me.
"How long have you been awake?" I muttered as i sat up and looked around.
"About an hour." his voice sounded really tired, but still sober.
"you could have woken me up... you didn't have to sit here alone."
"I didn't want to wake you... besides... you look relaxed when you sleep, thats something you never usually are."
"I...*yawn* sorry."
"It is okay babe." he laid back against the couch.
"Are you alright?"
"Not really."
"Well.... I"
"Just don't worry about it, everything will be fine."
"You know me better than that... I'm going to worry... always"
"That's what i love about you."
I felt like my heart was about to pop out of my chest. "you don't mean that."
"Of course i do." he tried to stand up, staggered for a minute, then fell onto the couch.
"You should lay back down and sleep it off."
"Sleep what off?"
"The obvious amount of alchohol that seems to be confusing you."
"I'm not confused in the least."
"You obviously are. otherwise you'd be talking crap and sound like your usual hard headed self.""
"What's got you so upset?"
"I'm not upset."
"You are a bad lyer" He sighed and shook his head. "You never could really lie to me."
"I'm not upset, just worried thats all."
"Why are you worried?"
"Because you are as drunk as can be, and, well I just am thats all."
"I'm not that drunk... see." He stood up and smiled but fell back down hitting his head on a coffee table as he hit the floor.
"I wish you wouldn't prove me right." I came over to him and held out a hand to help him up.
He brushed my hand aside and pulled himself up on the couch.
"Why don't you try to get some rest, maybe you'll be back to normal when you wake up."
"I can't sleep otherwise i'd have still been out cold."
"Why can't you sleep?" I sat back down and tried not to sound frustrate.
"Just got to much on my mind."
"Do you think talking about it might help?" I sounded so emotionless and cold, like it wasn't me speaking.
"It might it might not." he sounded even colder than i did.
"WEll i guess it is worth a shot then"
"I don't want to bother you with my problems... by the sound of things you have enough of your own."
What do you mean by the sound of things?"
"WEll i woke up because you were crying in your sleep, like there was something you were scared of... you asked someone not to leave"
"I just..." I looked away knowing that it was him i saw in my dream, he was dying and i was begging him not to leave.
"What was wrong?"
"It was just a nightmare... an awful nightmare."
"what makes it so awful?"
"It doesn't matter."
He leaned in and touched my hand which was setting on my lap. "it obviously does or you wouldn't have cried. What was the matter?"
"I watched you die."
"Oh, well," for the first time in what felt like forever... he was speachless.
"Well nevermind that... i guess dreams are just dreams or at least i hope so."
There was this long and awkward silence.. like i could he him thinking. Then he spoke up and came over and sat on the loveseat next to me.
"It isn't going to happen, i promise."
"You shouldn't make promises you can't keep." An evil look comes to my eyes.
"What do you mean?"
I drew a dagger and thrust it into his chest on the lower left side.
"I'm sorry."
I sat there as he gasped helplessly. He kept mouthing.. why why... and i just sat there stone cold and heartless.I reached over and touched his cheek as it grows cold.
I leaned closer to him and kissed him lightly on the cheek.
"I wish it could have been any other way."
That is it... i woke up crying and went on with life.
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