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Umm.. this is me... what is it to you?

	So if I don't get this out I'll shoot someone!!
	So if I don't get this out I'll shoot someone!!


I feel like crying.... crying . So many things have gone wrong today that I want to cry and scream and yell and kill and die and give up and sigh see him because when it is any normal time and we're alone and he's sober... I'd feel better if I could just take myself back in timmy to when he kissed me.... I wish I hadn't pulled away then... I wish I had just let it come and never had a second thought... but here I am now. I'm stuck here and now praying that he'll pull through everything alright and I won't have to keep hurting and he might stop doing so much to hurt himself and maybe I should just leave. Maybe he'd be better if I hadn't gotten envolved when he wanted to die... maybe if I never met him he would be a better person. But maybe won't buy my dreams and thus I go back to pretending that I'm fine so he won't know how bad it feels. If you know who I'm talking about don't let him find out what I'm going through... the last thing I need now is a confrontation or his continuing pity. [Aku~Soku~Zan] · Sat Feb 18, 2006 @ 12:04am · 0 Comments


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