And i have to say that even though it was amusing, i don't think i want to go though that again.
I felt disgusting and like i had no control over my thoughts and what i was doing.
Other than that the only upside was having really clear thoughts and that was it.
The rest of it was really bad for me. I could not tell what was real and what wasn't. My mom was angry at me when i came home and it's never happened. But i tried to keep my cool and i figured out what was going on. Another absence thing but i have an excuse and i'm pissed that my teachers would count me as absent. Damn it i was volunteering.
My mom never suspected anything and that's how it's gonna stay.
Though i'm super upset that i was fed shrimp that i couldn't taste.
That was when i decided it was more torture than bliss.
Though he told me that at one point i started licking his arm. I think i remember that part, << i think i was cool. Pretty sure.
But i'm still never doin' it again
 Nirrina · Sun Jan 24, 2010 @ 12:22am · 0 Comments |
