Jan.7/06
My heart is broken and I feel as though I can't live. It hurts so much now that he's gone but he waited until I came home to tell me. He wrote the email on januray 5th. It's two day's later and I found out today, did he know how much I loved him? I know I messed it up with a stupid joke that me and my guy friend made up one day at school.I should've went, "oh this is stupid and he won't think it is funny" instead I lied to him even more to get the joke bigger... I messed up to much for our relationship to last and to think I had a christmas present for him that I know he won't take...I'm sorry I ruined your life and made you go through s**t that you didn't need in your life, these tears that flow I think of you who once held me tight and loved me for me. I felt strong by you and I wanted to make you happy. I failed in that, please move on and forget me, forget the words you hear come from my mouth and please, forget these tears you see.
A Poem From My Heart
We looked into each others eyes,
It was love at first sight.
I was afraid to commit, but my heart dies,
To see you once again.
It lasted for the time,
My feelings growing so much that I can't live without you.
I wanted to call you mine,
But I knew better than to own you.
Deep in my heart you were mine,
You had me with a single word.
I Wanted to be with you until the end of time,
But love starts fast and ends too soon.
My heart cries and bleeds,
You weep and live.
I could never amount to my deeds,
To keep you in my arms.
A Voice deep in my heart.
That is all you can be now,
My balloon was popped with the dart
Of hate and saddness.
My heart bleeds and so do I
But I need to know that you live
Stay strong and don't watch me die
For it will hurt us both if you knew that I cried.
(I love you BlackFrost6, too bad it's over.)
shedevilkai Community Member 
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