Dear Diary,
I don't know what it is with me, but I can't seem to shake this inner feeling of sadness I have. It's nice that I have nice people to talk to, but I just can't seem to be truly happy. My true inner self is... is so .. I can't seem to choose the right words. I'm just wrapped in sadness's embrace, I guess I can say. I remember speaking with Starr 46, and how we like songs such as What a Wonderful World, and Over the Rainbow. Those songs seem to have a sadness within them, even though there is a hope that it reaches for. And then there is Center of the Sun. The video is very moving to me, and everytime I reach a certain part in that video and song, I get a feeling of shivers(?), or inspiration, maybe of hope? No, it can't be hope, but ... hmm.. but energy?... no... some type of feeling.. maybe of a type of awe. I can't choose the right word at the moment. Anyhow, I don't know if I will ever shake this. I'm sure I will one day, when there is true happiness in my life. Till that day, I will continue to live, if I am so gifted, and look forward to happiness's embrace.
Thank you Dear Diary. Thank you for your shoulder, your sympathy, and your understanding.
With love,
Filamina
Actually Dear Diary. I just listened to Louis Armstrong's words in his song, and it's all positive. It is just me who seems to be able to see sadness in it. I think it must be the fact that that world is so far and away from what reality is, that is what makes it sad to me.
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Dear Diary, you are the one I come to when nobody else can possibly understand. :(
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