Am feeling lost.
Don't know what to do.
Am trying hard to remember what I want.
To remember what it was that made me go on.
To remember how it felt to laugh for real.
To remember a day that I was truly happy.
It's hard.
So many things that blur the happy moments till they're no more.
So very many things.
Why?
Why can't they all just go away?
Why can't they leave, even for a second?
They freeze all my joy.
The burn all my feeling.
They drown all my laughs.
They.
Kill.
Me.
It feels like I'm dieing inside.
I know it's the depression.
I know it's all in my head.
I know.
But I can't comprehend why.
I sit there for hours trying to read it.
Trying to understand it.
But I can't.
I don't know why.
Why?
So many ask the same question.
Some give up.
Some move on.
But why me?
I have no reason to be depressed, right?
Good family, nice friends, great future.
But why?
I'll just give up.
But not now. Not yet.
I'll learn as much as I can before I'm gone.
Make sure that everything's settled.
They won't miss me much.I hope.
I'm lost.
In my mind.
I can't escape.
Let me die...
Don't know what to do.
Am trying hard to remember what I want.
To remember what it was that made me go on.
To remember how it felt to laugh for real.
To remember a day that I was truly happy.
It's hard.
So many things that blur the happy moments till they're no more.
So very many things.
Why?
Why can't they all just go away?
Why can't they leave, even for a second?
They freeze all my joy.
The burn all my feeling.
They drown all my laughs.
They.
Kill.
Me.
It feels like I'm dieing inside.
I know it's the depression.
I know it's all in my head.
I know.
But I can't comprehend why.
I sit there for hours trying to read it.
Trying to understand it.
But I can't.
I don't know why.
Why?
So many ask the same question.
Some give up.
Some move on.
But why me?
I have no reason to be depressed, right?
Good family, nice friends, great future.
But why?
I'll just give up.
But not now. Not yet.
I'll learn as much as I can before I'm gone.
Make sure that everything's settled.
They won't miss me much.I hope.
I'm lost.
In my mind.
I can't escape.
Let me die...
