Well, I just got back from some R&R in Genting where I was the head cook/maid/mother hen for the band, studied a little and took a little tour of the casino... It was really relaxing, but then Jun Hee has to spoil everything by being an a**. Long story, if I ever get to podcasting/type the whole story you'll know how stupid, lazy, troublesome, uncooperative and irresponsible idiot he is... D=< But the R&R aside, I'm going to start studying and pray that I pass all my subjects this semester... I can't afford another fail coz that would mean I'll need to do another semester to cope with the extra loads.
Though I'm in the midst of exams and stuff, I've set up the small shrine for Drubwang Rinpoche so as to keep myself in check. I notice that there is a need to keep my desires and character in general in check. His presence reminds me the need to look within for spiritual insight and growth instead of attaching myself to superficial items, including Yoon. I'm still struggling to keep him out of my mind so as to not stir the negative thoughts I tend to have. I'm still working on it...
I'll be so glad when the exams are over on Tuesday. I've been bashing myself for some time now as I sorta let myself slip into lethargy half-way through the semester. This sort of thing happens when you yield to your desires and let the monkey mind free... The fickle-ness and tendency to conform to idleness is the thing that makes me the academic slob I am. I'm thankful I still have my industrial contacts and constant exposure to the industry, without which I'll just end up being a failed biotech student with a worthless degree who is doomed to spend the rest of his humdrum life in the dark, dusty confines of uni/high school labs washing test-tubes. ><
Enough of myself... on to the exams...
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Drinking: Coke
Listening to: Wandering Red Shoes, Vertigo, Colour Blind, Sleepless Flight - Faye Wong
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