today I had a conflict going on in my head....a while ago my mom and dad were giving me "the talk" and the entire time I kept repeating ewww over and over in my head....(I'm not the type to think baout things like that)....so I finely tell my mom that I'm gay and I don't give a crap about sex because I don't need it! Then just the other day my mom came in once again I was already pissed off and i was sooo not in the mood for this....she sat down on my bed next to me and startted to talk to me about sex between girls.....it was strange....but because I have started to talk to my mom about my problems....I have wanted to push her away....the more I let her in....the more I want her out...and lately its just been getting worse...I have been staying up late thinking about everything... crying has stopped helpping...and so has everybody around me....I just don't know what to do now....I feel so very distant from ever one now....I feel so alone... but I don't want to go to Shayla for this...I don't want her to worry about it....man....this song isn't helping at all....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oeSUxSJ6NbU&feature=channel_page....yeah thats the song but if you don't get it thats fine well its getting late I should go.....
~later~
Neoin Hinamori
 ichiruki695 · Mon Jan 19, 2009 @ 09:03pm · 1 Comments |
