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	Beneath the Earth lies the story...
	Beneath the Earth lies the story...

Mood ~Contempt~
Music ~The music in my head (Like that son "A hero can save us..." or whatever its called)~

Thought I am out of this little hole that I have so effectively dug for myself (Damn near six feet under if you get my morbid meaning stare )...I find myself with another problem. I feel like I have been disconnected with the world...but not in a particularly good way. I feel like I'm stuck behind a plate glass window that is tinted and no one notices I'm here but I see them. Have I royally offended some higher power or SOMETHING?!?!? Is there something out there that revels in making my life as hellish as possible? It seems that nowadays no one pays any attention to me. I say something to someone and in the middle of saying whatever I say thay turn to someone else and start talking to THEM! Is it me? Is it something I've done? Sometimes I'll be avoided like the plague. Sometimes I feel like a specter that some people can see, how ever briefly stare , and the other people don't care to see. I try to give advice to someone or carry on a conversation and they'll
1. Change the subject
2. Yawn and look disinterested
3. Look around and answer me with only nods or a monosyllable affirmitive....
I think I'm just going to give up talking to people and see how long it takes them to notice stare The world is a messed up place and I'm beginning to agree with the idea of destroying the Human race. For all that we can achieve we resort to the cattle mentality and slowly wallow in the same s**t our ansestors tried to impress on us!

Alright so I wont go into a discussion on the things running through my brain. Once again the only person who can possibly help me IS me. Always was, always will be...just ME.

<center>The darkened skys
Rain down their torment
A thousand lies
Regretable truths
Once
Again
I
Am
Torn
The empty hallow of my heart
I know that once it could be filled
Time has a different purpose
That
Bitter
Taste
Within
Me
Augment the rapid sucession of joys
Each day I learn of love
Then the new dawn brings fresh destruction
I am torn down before I am rebuilt
Level ground survives the storm
But it holds nothing of itself
Regret
The
Fallen
Past
I find my present path
Distorted by a shadow
And from whence I came
A
Widows
Nest
And I the spider
My present be no better
It walls are warped in hellish light
A day I've seen before
The sickening spinning
Has reached me at last
I find my last bonds fly loose
And
So
Loosed
I
Be
Insanity has been my refuge
Plead my case before the court
And
Find
Me
Guilty
Please</center>

· Sat Nov 06, 2004 @ 01:28am · 6 Comments


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	I know what you're talking about. There used to be a time when people would ignore me fully as they are doing to you. Some do ignore me now, but its more about who has the more important conversation. This time will pass. Perhaps people don't know what to say to you because you're just too damn cool. I was talking to my "hair stylist" Tony about a tough time I had. I was upset and I wanted to cry, but then I got angry because I couldn't, which then made laugh, which got me angry and everything just started over. I was talking to him about how I find it hard to talk to people, how people didn't really speak with me. He basically told me that maybe it wasn't me having the hard time so much as it was that they were having difficulties. It may be true, it might not be. You just need confidence, strike up a conversation with someone even if its only about clothing. Maybe you should just mention a heated topic. Maybe I should just cut to the chase and say people are idiotic. But if you'd like to talk to me, feel free to do so, I'm in 2nd period art, and everywhere else on campus ^_^ Keep writing, you're skilled. Mad skill. xd Offline · Community Member · Sat Nov 06, 2004 @ 06:16pm


	I know what you're talking about. There used to be a time when people would ignore me fully as they are doing to you. Some do ignore me now, but its more about who has the more important conversation. This time will pass. Perhaps people don't know what to say to you because you're just too damn cool. I was talking to my "hair stylist" Tony about a tough time I had. I was upset and I wanted to cry, but then I got angry because I couldn't, which then made laugh, which got me angry and everything just started over. I was talking to him about how I find it hard to talk to people, how people didn't really speak with me. He basically told me that maybe it wasn't me having the hard time so much as it was that they were having difficulties. It may be true, it might not be. You just need confidence, strike up a conversation with someone even if its only about clothing. Maybe you should just mention a heated topic. Maybe I should just cut to the chase and say people are idiotic. But if you'd like to talk to me, feel free to do so, I'm in 2nd period art, and everywhere else on campus ^_^ Keep writing, you're skilled. Mad skill. xd Offline · Community Member · Sat Nov 06, 2004 @ 06:17pm


	Why thank you for that comment 3nodding Yes it might be them...but I still feel that it is me somtimes...If just not most of the time...I mean I'll mention one slight thing and they look at me as if to say "Ok can I go now?" Grrr...I think that the only reason I mind it is my Leo moon for those who know astrology ninja Do you by the by? Offline · Community Member · Sun Nov 07, 2004 @ 07:18am


	Damn, why did you have to be so good with POEMS?! That has got to be my favorite! And you know, Kain, you shouldn't let people's reactions bother you. If they don't listen, then just shrug it off and not do it again. People can be moody sometimes, tired, or just plain bitchy that day...so it could always be a glitch in the system too. Offline Viirage · Community Member · Tue Nov 09, 2004 @ 02:36am


	Really? What do like about it? Why yes but we earth signs seem to have that fault or at least when a Taurus is mixed with a Leo moon then tht is what happens >_>; Offline · Community Member · Wed Nov 10, 2004 @ 01:55am


	I liked how you isolated some words, gave it more impact. And the combination of words you gave were nice, too. xd And that's why you carry 'round a Scorpio. With an Aries moon. >_> Because we don't take social mishaps seriously unless they flip us off, insult us, or punch us. Then things get violent. blaugh Offline Viirage · Community Member · Thu Nov 11, 2004 @ 07:04pm

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