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i know some of you *steffy, kellmo* know what i look like and only one of you *steffy* has been whatching me change from afar. as ive grow up *with my flaws and my perfections* i seem to feel that there will always be apart of me thats just not right. I feel that my physicals flaws are my face, hair and body structure, and i feel that before i step foot in hightschool i should feel beautuful, and as mush as i joke and all i really dont feel pretty or cute or anything. now i sound self-absorbed but someone said something to me that got to me.

Story time.

one day in the land of OLGC i was stitting with a girl in my class. we were talking about random stuff when this other girl amanda waltzed in loud as ever and becan making a scene. The girl i was talking with leaned over as wispered "i dont care how hot the guys think she is on the outside, but shes really ugly on the inside".


Story time over

This got to me in a way, that was far from bad, but more as a revolation. i fet that yes i have my flaws and yes i cant see all of them, but there is some good in me that i want to keep, because it helps others, but i was to, not profect, but crotique myself before i end one chapter in my life and begin a new one, and i feel that my body is the first step. I had a talk with a very very very good friend today and he was worried for me, for my health, so i wanted to end his stess and make a promise to him. I promisse to crotique meself in a healthy way and not become sick over all of this. I hope you get what im saying.



I would like if anyone who reads this would put a pro and a con about me. something you like and dont like. i wont get hurt if its mean i just want to get rid of hurtful parts of my personality for good