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	The clouds so far ahead...remind me once of you...
	The clouds so far ahead...remind me once of you...

Mood~Shifting from Undescribable Rage to Nice and back again in 5 seconds flat!~
Music~Some sort of Techno~

Its a pure miracle...an absolute random instance of devine mercy...that I have not taken it upon myself to destroy everything within a ten or more mile radius around me. I've been in a rather destructive mood with periodic mood swings of kindness. I feel like I'm shifting from one side of me that likes nothing better than to cause as much pain and terror as possible. Then to the other side that is kind and considerate, concerned for all and other such niceness. Then there is the middle which i am most always. A cynical, sadistic b***h that can be nice if she chooses. But in them all I find a certain sadness. Can it ever be redeemed?

<center>Why must I be?
It turns out that there is nothing but shadows
A formless entity
Devouring everything
The abyss at the end of the river
Turns out to be my heart
Into nothing
Unto everything
The gates let loose an exodus
Together on to the next
The ones that come full circle
All those that know the river
They join me in my spectral paradise
To witness the end
As will they all
So they leave me to this eternity
As my blind eyes stare after them
I wait for you to come
To me you bridge the gap but you just keep inside
Once so long ago I lounged upon that shield
And laughed at the silly things
So innocent I their existence
They floated from its side
But now I press against it
If only just to know
As I have had my masks I know the broken glass
But as those far off clouds
That drift so serenly above me
I know that like those too
You are far from me now
And all I see are shades of midnight stars
As the shattered pieces
that are ever know my name
Stab me from inside as I lay down tonight to sleep</center>

· Thu Oct 28, 2004 @ 02:21am · 2 Comments


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	Wow...what's the cause of all of these rather strong mood swings? Something bothering you, Kain? Offline Viirage · Community Member · Thu Oct 28, 2004 @ 02:54am


	Of course not! I'm just peachy dandy! 3nodding Offline · Community Member · Fri Oct 29, 2004 @ 12:55am

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