Sometimes I wonder why I even bother to help people. I help guys get the girls they want or sortof...I get bashed by newbies and I get harrassed all in one day. I have been here now for a month and still I keep getting treated like dirt..and you wonder why I have to be so cold like I am. Its cause I am forced to be. I cant relax and play slots like some others..no Im busting my butt to clear spam out of wtg.
I just dont get what the point of me being here is, Im not an angel I dont claim to be to make my self look like something Im not. Im not hot, Im not sexy..gawd why do people have to base you upon a stupid pixel.
I feel like s**t online and offline...and my parents wonder why I stay in my room so much. Simple I dont need to be fussed at any more then what I am. Lost my little bro yesterday..we parted on not so nice terms, he is with his dad now for a month then back to his b***h a** mother. I dont know if I was really there for him or not. Havent heard from my bf in 2 days and Im worried sick over him. I dont eat 3 meals like most..I only eat one, so I dare dont want to hear not scrawny girl complain about a small chest..when she is perfect in everything. No need to complain when you are what men want. Im not and I know Im not.
Im a tomboy I know..I have to be, thats how it is around my place. I am happy with what I got..at least for the most part till I get picked on or made fun of. I know how it hurts..I know cause thats how it has been most of my life..one thing after the other. I never win, I always lose. Thats how life is for me. I am a cutter, a christain, a wiccan, and an archer. Im the one that people pick a part..nothing really knew to me. I grew up with it, but I know retupution is going to come to those in the end. Thats all I can believe. I follow no set rules, just make my own standards as I go.
If you dont like the way I am, then its better if you werent around me. I have heard every lie in the book, so if your going to try and trick me guess again, it wont work.
*sighs and vanishes*
SaraWhiteWolf · Sat Jun 11, 2005 @ 06:15am · 2 Comments |