Okay. So I've been like, super depressed lately. To the point where I believe it's unhealthy. I've been feeling the urge to cry lately, I've been feeling anxious lately, and I have a huge "knot"-ish feeling thing in my stomach. All my friends are saying it's because I miss Pat because he missed a whole week of school, but I don't think that's it. Yeah, I saw him on Tuesday, and that's when it left, but right when I got home after visiting him, it came back. *Sigh* I don't know, now. They might be right. Is it possible to feel sick-ish when you're not around the one you love? I don't know anymore. Here's more of what I've been feeling lately. Nauseous, anxious, sad/depressed, tired, etc. I almost passed out today after I got out of the shower. I don't even know why I'm feeling like this!! I love him with all my heart, but I miss him with all my heart, too. I'm so lost... so confused. None of my IRL "friends" on Gaia talk to me anymore. And by IRL, I mean the people who live in the same city as me right now. They've been calling me certain names, ignoring me, or casting me dirty looks. Even their girlfriends/boyfriends have been mean to me. So whatever. *Sigh* I know who my true friends are [and by that, I mean people who I've met face-to-face and have never dated]: Dexter, Caitlin, and Amanda. Yeah, my internet friends are great listeners, too, but it's different when you can talk to them face-to-face. I think I'm becoming a basket case. I feel like my mind is playing tricks on me. I've been giving myself the creeps lately. I'm always paranoid about what's around the corner. I'm cracking up because I keep "seeing" my dead friends... I think I'm being haunted...
CaRto0nz · Sun Oct 21, 2007 @ 02:09am · 0 Comments
