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Hey internet.

I know lately I've asked a lot of you for your prayers, and I do appreciate it. Austin's recovery has been fantastic, and my relationship with my family has improved since I asked all those months ago about my mom. But tonight has probably been the worst night of my life in a long, long time. You see, tonight I made up my mind to call off my engagement. I've been thinking about it, praying about it, talking to my family members, and just about everything I could think of for over a year now, trying to do everything I can to not go through with it, but I fear that this was the only option available. I love her, but she needs someone other than me, and God willing, she'll find him after this. But I still feel like my gut has been wrenched open, and I find it hard to concentrate on much any more. I don't know that I've ever been this low, but maybe that's a good thing. After all, it's only when we have nothing left, that we realize just how much we have. God has a plan, and if this is part of it, surely He will guide me where he needs me to be. But please pray for me. I'm at a very low point in my life right now.

As always, thank you, and God bless.