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Posted: Mon Feb 08, 2010 1:18 pm
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Posted: Mon Feb 15, 2010 5:49 am
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There's a fish that died. I was sad it died, but I suppose I did not grow as attached to it as I did to Diamond the cat. Diamond was a great cat. She loved people. Whenever I was stressed out, she'd come to me and I just hang with her. She was great company.
The story:
Diamond escaped the house more than once and had returned without injury. One day, she came back but she was sick. For three days she looked really sick and I urged my mom to take her to the vet. My mom thought the cat was pregnant, and I naively accepted that over the more realistic alternative.
The day before she died, she vomited a clear liquid. She died Tuesday morning at around 2:30 am. A few hours before, she was crying and my dad told me she was going to die. I honestly did not believe him for a second. How could Diamond die if she was so important to me?
At the time of her death, I stayed up late watching tv. I couldn't get the possibility of her diying out of my head. Of course, I didn't know she was dead at the time. I avoiding going out to the hallway for fear of it being true. My father later told me he didn't have the heart to take her.
My sister woke me up the next morning with tears in her eyes. I did not believe the words that came out of her mouth Diamond is dead. I had prayed so hard for God to spare her.
I went to see Diamond lying on the floor. Her beautiful eyes were open, and they were looking at me, but there was nothing there. I kept telling myself she had to be asleep. I put my hand on her body and felt nothing. She was not breathing. The tears that followed did not cease for days.
My mother came and said she had to throw the body away. I did not want this. I had none of a pet cemetery, but at the time, I was not thinking rationally. I had lost one of my closest friends!
Later that day, my mom threw Diamond into the trash. Every single day, I ask for God and Diamond for forgiveness. I shouldn't have let mom do that, but I was not thinking straight. I made a video on the day of her death to help me sort my feelings. It is on Youtube. There is a revised one too.
I was depressed for eight months. There were times when I really wanted to kill myself. Fortunately, I had friends around to help me through it. I avoided talking it with my family because they seemed to have moved on much quicker than I, especially my sister.
It's strange to think, but I was still a little depressed right before Grad Night my senior year in high school. When I saw Katy Perry before, all my pain just went away. I had hope for the future. Thereafter, I ridiculously seem to have become infatuated with Katy.
However, it seems to have gone down now. I used to think about her everyday initially, but not anymore. Kinda pathetic, I guess. I never thought a performer would change my life like that. She sort of saved me from myself.
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Posted: Sat Feb 27, 2010 1:00 pm
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Posted: Sat Feb 27, 2010 8:18 pm
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Posted: Thu May 06, 2010 11:26 am
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Posted: Sun May 09, 2010 7:12 am
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