Hey all, welcome to my journal of looOve.

Well where should I start? I'm 22, rather shy but a total exhibitionist. That totally confuses people! Well to put it simply I've never had an internal device telling me sex was shameful even though I had lots of external things, like church and family, to tell me it was. I never meant any harm but it was difficult for me to keep my shirt on- literally! And I always got in trouble for that.

The first serious relationship I ever had was with a girl who later turned out to be a F2M transsexual which makes things pretty confusing so I guess my first serious relationship was with a Male transsexual to put things right.

People sometimes think I'm transsexual because I like to cross dress but that's not true at all. It's just my comfort zone because my parents were conservative and cheep and dressed me like a boy for most of my life so I actually feel a little like I'm in drag when I wear women's cloths but I look damn good in them and I like to wear them- I'm just not used to it!

In fact, I'm having so much fun now that I'm dressing like a woman I went out and got my eye brows waxed and my ears pierced for my first time at age 21!
Getting my ears pierced hurt a lot and I almost feinted, I am a total wuss!- but it was absolutely worth it because now I look like a real girl. And my new eye brows are very pretty. I'm so happy. heart

Sometimes I still like to pretend I'm a boy because it's fun but it doesn't feel like drag to me but I think technically it is- or just role play or something- dunno!

Wow and I went off on gender--

Anyway, right now I am living with a man and we both have an open relationship. He's very cute but very shy and luckily for me very sexually adventurous like me. We're so happy together. Every day we check out girls together and watch porn together- it's fun that I found someone I can share all this with without being judged.

I hope I can meet a beautiful woman who will be my life partner as well one day. I just have to meet somebody who won't be too put off by my weirdness.

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