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Posted: Fri Aug 30, 2013 6:16 pm
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I had to go to the hospital again for heart problems on Tuesday (after thinking I was done with that until I at least got old, but I'm still only 21), and I don't know what's wrong. I have a doctor's appointment, but mostly I'm just scared because I don't want to go through this again. Me being sick like I was years ago not only hurt me, but it hurt my parents, their wallets, and my relationships with people.
I've been praying to get better and have what happened on Tuesday never happen to me again if God wills it. I really don't want to live the rest of my life in-and-out of hospitals and laying in bed like an invalid half the time. I know that sounds prideful of me to try and stand up to God and ask that he please fix this, but I'm just really terrified that whatever is wrong with my heart is going to require surgery, or is something life-threatening, or if there's some underlying problem.
I pray that it's nothing, and that it never happens again, for the sake of my parents and friends and myself. God has had mercy on me for so long, but I just wish he would have more mercy on me, and I hope that isn't greedy. God scares me, and I don't want to suffer from heart illness again. I thought that I had already had the lowest point in my life years ago, but Jesus said that to he who has, more will be given, and to he that has nothing, even that which he has will be taken from him... I don't want my health taken from me again.
I'm just really scared and while God is there to comfort me I don't want to run my family into financial ruin by paying thousands of dollars in hospital bills again, or me being so tired again that I can't even get out of bed. Please just pray that I am healed, I don't know how much I can ask of God before he gets tired of me asking for things...
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Posted: Fri Aug 30, 2013 11:43 pm
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Posted: Sun Sep 01, 2013 11:45 am
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Posted: Wed Sep 04, 2013 1:29 pm
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Posted: Tue Sep 10, 2013 6:40 pm
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Posted: Tue Sep 10, 2013 7:01 pm
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Posted: Mon Sep 16, 2013 6:23 am
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Posted: Tue Oct 01, 2013 7:30 am
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