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 Posted: Thu Mar 22, 2012 12:46 am
I almost called this Twilight's Sunsets and Roses...
anywho, I guess I might as well begin this now. I should have a while back, but I'm the shy type (believe it or not), so it usually takes me a long time to truely warm up to a new place.
but, I have news to share, and since other folks here can journal their lives for folks, I should be able to as well.
I guess first bit of news is, Shandrel has ended our relationship. and not just broken up with me again, she has completely cut me out of her life this time.... which means, I assume, that I am no longer her Pet, either. I gotta admit, not wearing my collar left me feeling physically hurt and sick the first couple days.
she left last friday. I've been having a rough time dealing with it, especially since she's completely changed as a person for it.... it's hard to explain, yu'd have to have known her as long as I have to realy know what I mean.
but, she had been the only person I felt I could realy trust.... for 2 and a half years we've been together and I've trusted her more than anyone.... and now she's thrown me away, blamed me for everything, and is spreading rumours about me. treating me with more hatred than people who have abused her, convincing herself that I'm deserving of torments that she hasn't even done to people who have raped her and caused her lupus to flare up.
and because of that.... I don't think I can realy trust anyone again. it took me so much to have the trust I had for her, and I trusted her completely for 2 and a half years. the only person I could realy trust completely, th eonly person who I let know about me the things that I did.... and now even SHE has betrayed me.... how am I supposed to recover from that? how am I supposed to ever trust anyone again?
I have, however, realized that she's realy been holding me back this whole time. being free is liberating in a lot of ways. so, there is that.
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Posted: Sat Jan 04, 2014 11:09 am
ya know... I never write in this thing... and it seems in this guild I mainly only talk about my relationships. I don't quite know what else to talk about. my interests maybe?
I'll give it a shot. ^_^
I'm Twi, obviously. I like D&D and Magic: The Gathering. I am a huge Star Wars geek. some of my favourite Manga include Loveless and Demon Diary. I have read The Hobbit, The Lord Of The Rings, and The Silmarillion, and I still want to read Durin's Line. I can actually understand some Tolkien Languages (used to be fluent in Quenya and Sindarin).
I like to write poetry and lyrics. that's the art form I'm skilled in. if I were any better at drawing, I'd love to be an Architect.
I'm interested in Politics, Science, Philosophy, and Theology. I study different religions.
I'm an eclectic non-religious Spiritualist. my biggest influences are Chaos-Magic, Hinduism, Taoism, and Shamanism (not specifically the Siberian type). my views of God/The Divine are Panentheistic and Pantheistic, with Animatistic elements.
I really need to get better at doing this "get to know me" thing.
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Posted: Thu Aug 07, 2014 2:53 pm
You're doing just fine trust me wink
I'm a Tolkien fan as well. I have read what you read, and some more but I must admit it was years ago when I read it all. I forgot pretty much everything I once knew in those languages, but for a few phrases. It was a good getaway when I needed one.
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Posted: Thu Aug 07, 2014 4:35 pm
Mulien You're doing just fine trust me wink I'm a Tolkien fan as well. I have read what you read, and some more but I must admit it was years ago when I read it all. I forgot pretty much everything I once knew in those languages, but for a few phrases. It was a good getaway when I needed one. thanks. though this is way old. I wonder if its even ok that you necroe'd it. I'm sure it's fine, though.
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Posted: Thu Aug 07, 2014 7:41 pm
Chieftain Twilight Mulien You're doing just fine trust me wink I'm a Tolkien fan as well. I have read what you read, and some more but I must admit it was years ago when I read it all. I forgot pretty much everything I once knew in those languages, but for a few phrases. It was a good getaway when I needed one. thanks. though this is way old. I wonder if its even ok that you necroe'd it. I'm sure it's fine, though. Yeah well I fugured it was a 2014 post.. sorry.
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Posted: Fri Aug 08, 2014 8:41 am
Mulien Chieftain Twilight Mulien You're doing just fine trust me wink I'm a Tolkien fan as well. I have read what you read, and some more but I must admit it was years ago when I read it all. I forgot pretty much everything I once knew in those languages, but for a few phrases. It was a good getaway when I needed one. thanks. though this is way old. I wonder if its even ok that you necroe'd it. I'm sure it's fine, though. Yeah well I fugured it was a 2014 post.. sorry. no worries. I'm just glad somebody finally decided to post here. xd
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Posted: Fri Aug 08, 2014 10:09 am
Chieftain Twilight Mulien You're doing just fine trust me wink I'm a Tolkien fan as well. I have read what you read, and some more but I must admit it was years ago when I read it all. I forgot pretty much everything I once knew in those languages, but for a few phrases. It was a good getaway when I needed one. thanks. though this is way old. I wonder if its even ok that you necroe'd it. I'm sure it's fine, though. Twi, this guild had been so comatose that almost ANY reply would be necro by most standards blaugh
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Posted: Fri Aug 08, 2014 11:52 am
Saew Chieftain Twilight Mulien You're doing just fine trust me wink I'm a Tolkien fan as well. I have read what you read, and some more but I must admit it was years ago when I read it all. I forgot pretty much everything I once knew in those languages, but for a few phrases. It was a good getaway when I needed one. thanks. though this is way old. I wonder if its even ok that you necroe'd it. I'm sure it's fine, though. Twi, this guild had been so comatose that almost ANY reply would be necro by most standards blaugh fair point... sweatdrop
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