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 Posted: Tue Jun 21, 2011 5:10 pm
Kitty Konspirator Diabolical Eevee Kitty Konspirator James is still iffy about us going to Florence Thursday, but I'm sure we can make up his mind. wink Or we could just stay out my place...alone...by ourselves....with a bedroom....and all. Yeah, we could play scrabble. I'd like to connect your four. I bribed our man with pancakes. We're on for Thursday.
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Posted: Tue Jun 21, 2011 5:41 pm
Diabolical Eevee I bribed our man with pancakes. We're on for Thursday. Doesn't that pink thing take away from your Baby cosplay?
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Posted: Tue Jun 21, 2011 5:53 pm
Kitty Konspirator Diabolical Eevee I bribed our man with pancakes. We're on for Thursday. Doesn't that pink thing take away from your Baby cosplay?
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Posted: Tue Jun 21, 2011 6:59 pm
Diabolical Eevee Kitty Konspirator Diabolical Eevee I bribed our man with pancakes. We're on for Thursday. Doesn't that pink thing take away from your Baby cosplay? Maybe the guy in the beginning, the Sensei scenario.
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Posted: Wed Jun 22, 2011 4:49 am
Kitty Konspirator Diabolical Eevee Kitty Konspirator Diabolical Eevee I bribed our man with pancakes. We're on for Thursday. Doesn't that pink thing take away from your Baby cosplay? Maybe the guy in the beginning, the Sensei scenario.
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2011 10:50 am
It's been a roller coaster for Eevee lately. Talking in third person FTW. Don't blame me too much. Things have been crazy.
I've had a non-stop migraine. Last week I had a job interview. I don't know if I'll get it or not, but my stomach gets in knots just thinking about it. I want it. So. Bad. If I don't get it, I'll just keep trying, but I'd really, really like to get it.
God, now my stomach hurts from thinking about that. Things with James and Kitty have been rough lately. They're working through it, but it's sometimes rough to hear them...working...through it. There are times when I want to jump in, call them on stuff, but I know it isn't my place. Last night we had to borrow my dad's metal detector to find lost jewelry. We found it, btw biggrin
I really hope we can still have some good memories of this week. After a storm is the rainbow, or so they say.
Tomorrow Kitty's coming with me to confront my ex. I'm not supposed to be alone with him. He's still unmedicated. He goes from telling me he loves me and wants to be back together, to accusing me of stealing our tax return and claiming I owe his family money (which I don't. I really, really don't.) then back to telling me he loves me. He justifies saying those things to me, saying he just wants me to "talk with him" because I never do. But it's too late in the game for "talking." I just want to be free and to have a fresh start. Kitty's been so wonderful about it. She'll go medieval on his a** if he tries anything. And James is going with my dad to a car show at the time, so boy anger is covered with distraction by shiny machinery.
xoxo
Eevee
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2011 5:07 pm
It all sounds like progress, even if the going is a bit rough *hugs*
ninja want some rare candy?
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2011 5:46 pm
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Posted: Sat Jul 09, 2011 1:03 am
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Posted: Mon Jul 25, 2011 9:26 am
Well...I've come a long way since this time last year. And honestly, if I went back a year, I was experiencing a lot of happiness as well as a lot of anxiety.
This time last year...
I was on vacation in Savannah, GA, one of the most beautiful cities I've ever been in.
It was my 24th birthday.
I got married.
I thought I was making the right choice, and then my life turned upside down. I wonder all the time if I'm making the right choices in life, but I know for sure getting married was a mistake.
I'm having a party this afternoon, thrown by my best friends. I feel blessed to have such thoughtful friends, supportive parents (well, supportive of the split and emotionally supportive) and a good job. And I wonder what the next year is going to bring. I have to say I have a lot of anxiety about it, but I know I'm making necessary changes. I'm afraid to hope or wish for too much, because I feel like it would be naiive or that I might somehow jinx it. I'm trying to learn to be happy with what I have, because I have a pretty good life.
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Posted: Fri Sep 23, 2011 12:20 am
It's been a while. I've had quite a few ups and downs.
James, Kitty, and I went on an adventure to PA Labor Day weekend. James miraculously got a few days off work. It was for my birthday, which was back in July, but we wanted to wait for a good opportunity. It was nice and relaxing.
My mom has acted increasingly suspicious about how often I'm with Kitty and James. And I know she's not stupid. My therapist told me he doesn't think she would reject me, but I don't know anymore. Because she kind of did. We haven't talked openly about it, so she doesn't officially know. It was more or less because of all the time I spend with Kitty and James. But the next time I saw her, she hugged me and told me she didn't mean it. Which is great, but I felt abandoned and I just don't really trust that she won't reject me again the next time she doesn't like something. And with being depressed...it hasn't helped me. I don't think my meds are even working anymore. There's just been too much, and maybe no medication could change how I'm feeling. Kitty's the only one I've opened up to about this.
I did have a pretty good weekend. James and his friend got hammered and Kitty and I recorded it. They were so funny. It was like an inebriated motivational speaker coaching another drunk guy. Me, Kitty, and our friend went to an old west festival. It was great. I was "arrested." And James and I talked about some stuff I've been bottling up. He made me feel a lot better about everything. Except he was drunk when we were talking. I guess at least I know he was honest. He's known for being a little too honest when hammered.
Their anniversary is coming up, and it's going to be really special. I'm excited for them, and I'm not even going whee
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Posted: Mon Nov 07, 2011 7:08 am
Wow, I haven't updated since September!
Right now, Kitty's job hunting. I have a good feeling that she'll find something.
James is going to 12 hour shifts. This sounds bad, but it's really a good thing IMO. He'll actually have days off. And when he had days off, he was in a much better mood in general. Right now he has no time to do anything but be exhausted. So I can't wait until the switch.
As for me, I'm getting a raise and picking up 10 more hours a week because my coworker is leaving and going somewhere in the rain forest with the peace corps. And the week before and after Christmas, I'll get 40 hours a week. I've been broke for a long time, so this sounds wonderful. The only thing I'm not looking forward to is less time with Kitty and James and more laundry in the form of work clothes.
This whole thing makes me wish we already lived together. Then I wouldn't have to worry about when I can fit them in. But I really need Christmas money, and it would be nice not to be completely broke.
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