A poem (please give some feedback)

[Xx-Craziee Kat-xX]

Okay so, I wrote this the other day when I was super depressed and wanted to pick up my knife... But I didn't!! And looking back on that today, I feel proud. Instead of a knife, a piece of paper and pen. I like it.

So I wrote this, and looking back on it and seeing how much it relates to me, I want to publish it. I want feedback first so, please comment.

Feel

I've never felt so loved in my life
in fact, this is probably the most I'll feel.
Because I'm dying inside and barely anyone cares
so why does the love seem so real?

It hurts to know that she doesn't give a s**t,
and it pains me to see him turn away.
I know that they don't know about it
and so my sky turns gray.

The love of my life is gone for good
he never even really held me.
His heart belonged to someone better
which is why my heart and I are melting.

I still have the last piece of hope to hold onto
and I know I'll never let go.
My soul is slipping through my fingers
and I'm losing my grip, I know.

But I'll keep it on the edge of survival
not penetrating God's silence just yet.
I'll keep painting my pictures (so real)
I'll keep on like Claude Monet.

Because I know I'm an artist
and artist of strength.
Because I held onto him
even as he kept me at arm's length.

Please God, let me feel one last time
as I take a deep breath and shut my eyes tight.
I open them slowly to see my love standing
and he holds me, and I feel right.

 

[ChimeBell]

I really like the poem, but it is very difficult to give some qualified feedback.
What I like are the strong emotions in the poem. It feels like the "narrator" is letting people watch into her/his soul. And I partially know some of these feelings, so it makes me feel like I'm not alone, that there are people who understand.
I identify myself with the narrator, I feel for/with the narrator. You managed to touch my emotions, so this has to be a pretty good poem. Because poetry for myself is about feelings.

But this emotions make it hard to give an objective feedback, in terms of literature critic. I noticed for example that there is no rhyme in the third stanza, but I don't care.
I have no idea how other people will react to it.  

[Xx-Craziee Kat-xX]

Thanks for the feedback. The third stanza (if you squint) rhymes. Thanks for such a good reply.