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Posted: Mon Dec 08, 2008 12:09 am
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You know, it's kinda funny but I actually started in the subforums. I didn't feel comfortable enough around you guys until after I was pretty much dragged into the Phunkeh by another person. Of course, a lot of the people from that time are rarely on now, save the few regulars like Sav, Pancake, Sanzo, Jaft, Shram, Jimmy, and I think there were more that were practically a permanent fixture around here. Perhaps I'm just odd, that period of observation and experimentation in the subforums really actually helped speed up the immersion into the guild. While I'm sure that many newbies would not appreciate a subforum just for them (they might look at it as a sort of detox or n00b tank), the idea of having a place to work with ideas and people that, like themselves, are new to the guild would be be beneficial. Of course, we could have older members run in and out of the subforum every so often to make sure things won't go out of hand, and it would provide a link for the newbies and the oldbies. Sort of like with fish. You don't just toss them in the tank right away, you set up a staging station of sorts, so that they become accustomed to the new waters. ...I may have been saying nonsense up to now. This seems to be the most I've written in quite some time in this guild...
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Posted: Mon Dec 08, 2008 3:35 am
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I think the problem for me -- and possibly many other people -- is that real-life things have changed.
For the people unaware I've essentially severed my most-significant ties with my family. I can no longer rely on them for support and it's been really hard to support myself because of all the sh*t that my mother has put me through that, to be honest, I can't (and shouldn't) have to recover all by myself because it wasn't my doing in the first place. And it's not just me having real problems in the real world; so many others have problems too. And, likewise, many are posting in here for solace.
While I would do that as well, I understand that there are people who need a place where their problems won't need to be discussed; a place where they can just have fun. That's what the guild was to me when I wasn't so messed up and it's what I wish it would be during this time where I spend almost fifty percent of my nights crying alone, spending about 20 USD in food every two weeks, and barely having enough to pay for things, and still explaining to the banks, the schools, and the credit card companies why I can't pay them and rehashing the same story every day.
Everyone just has so many problems and it saddens me almost every time I see someone going through the same thing not only because I feel even more helpless that I can't help them (Internet solace doesn't do much, I'm afraid, since saying 'I'm sorry' is so easy) but because I can't enjoy the guild now that I'm concerned, once again, with my issue and now everyone else's issues.
I guess... What I've lost is an environment that was free of worries for a short while. Sure, there was drama back then in the old days, but not as much as now. I know I don't need drama right now in my Internet solace because I suffer from enough drama in the real world. It's... why I don't seem as kind as I used to be, or as social, or as happy, or as everything...
That's my thought on the matter...
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Posted: Thu Dec 18, 2008 1:26 am
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Posted: Thu Dec 18, 2008 11:38 am
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Posted: Thu Dec 18, 2008 12:24 pm
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Jafthasleftthebuilding Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Mar 26, 2009 12:55 pm
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Posted: Thu Apr 09, 2009 10:56 am
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Posted: Thu Apr 09, 2009 10:58 am
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