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Tonight is the night we become great!

I was right! There was a forum with it before! The character limit of three-four! I spoke with several people!

However, it seems it was deleted.

I quite enjoy Aurora, her antagonist, for her sheer innocence. XD

The Stars are what gave us away!

I find the sudden and coincidental arrival of Heart's characters and name amusing and a little foreboding. However, Heart's Modship has already been terminated and her characters will be purged. I won't budge on this as it was her choice. She'll be coming back with a fresh slate, though.

Kaz: You've no idea what it is like to be me. No one really does. I've spent my entire life closing myself off from people and emotional attachment. Parental affection never brought me any comfort, neither did friendship (not a lot, at least). The only creature that I can really say that I truly loved is not even human; she's a dog. A bloody dog. And they don't live nearly as long as I'd like them to. As of right now, I am only a distant friend to most and probably the future financial hinge of my family. That's pretty much it. I mean, there might be a few people who would shed tears for my departure for this world, but that's only because their biological make-up will demand a release for their grief. And I have felt the sting of rejection one too many times. I don't wish to look like a fool. I'd rather be a cold and heartless jackass who has the intelligence only people could dream of rather than look like an idiot.

My dear Haku, you have no idea what it is like to be me either. And quite frankly, I wouldn't want you too. I only know how to be myself, if I knew what it was like to be you then I couldn't be me. Rejection is simply a part of living, everyone has been rejected at one point or another. Looking like a fool is simply part of rejection. I'm not here to preach or nag, if you wish to live in emotion seclusion then so be it. That's your choice, and if it brings you satisfaction then more power to you. Also, dogs are man's best friend there's nothing wrong with loving one. To be cold and heartless... in my mind such a thing can only bring more loneliness, how sad. But such is the world.

I'm thinking of getting rid of Sena as well as my new RPC, I don't like him too much.

I've made myself believe that I can bring happiness through achieving my goals; and my goal is to not end up like my family. I've no desire to be like any of them. And to achieve my goal, financial success is what I need. I cannot let anything get in my way, including others and especially emotion. I identify with Seto Kaiba in that respect. I'm determined to not be dependent on anyone for anything. The only problem is that I cannot escape the human need for companionship. Even when I had my dog (I don't right now; I am in college and cannot keep her with me) I still felt alone (but she softened it; I really do want her back). Being human is getting in my way. Humanity is ******** with me. I despise it so much. Despite my greatest attempts, I can't get rid of this plaguing human mind, this human feeling, these human emotions. Even if my feeling of being God is all in my head, I'd rather live in the illusion. I'd rather go on maintaining the belief that once this mortal shell expires then I can realize true ascension. My mortal shell utterly fails at achieving the companionship it desires.

Apologies. A momentary spur of weakness on my part. I should go to sleep and refuel myself. No one here really cares anyway. I'll be fine after I have had a chance to recharge. This mortal shell is already falling apart.

Although, part of me says to go for it with said female. But an even bigger part of me says: "No, you'll be rejected like the countless number of other times. Just let it go and resume life as normal."

I am also prepared for the wave of "OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH HAKU IS A LOSER HE IS WEAK LOGICALUS HAS FLAWS!! 8D!!!!"

You're just full of optimism, aren't you?

So I should not listen to my pretty friends? Are you pretty, Mana?