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 Posted: Thu Apr 12, 2012 8:55 pm
т ѕ υ в α к ιThe ɔ ʋ ʀ ʂ ɘ ɗ Cat « / ɝ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ╔══════════════╗ Can you love me?╚══════════════╝ « / ɝ Tsubaki studies Asami as he put the camera away. It was nice to just be sitting there with the rat and joking around with him. It was much better than fighting. That was for sure! When he was like this, he was for sure cute in her eyes. Now she wished they had been able to start being like this as kids... She wished they had always been like this instead of fighting all the time. It seemed so pointless now. To others it may look pointless, if they didn't know of course... But to the zodiac the two of them, Asami and Tsubaki, were fated to fight. Even if that meant they almost kill each other... All because the rat decided to have a good laugh and be a jerk to the poor, excited cat. Maybe that was the side that was showing right now. The side and the way the cat might of been those hundreds or thousands of years ago before the rat prank him and cursed the Sohma family forever....
Now that the cat thought about it... Maybe that was why she always fought with him. Was she holding the hundreds of years old grudge that start that one fateful night? Between two animals who were destined to hate one another since the beginning of the first breathe of Adam was taken. Maybe that was also why she was so distant... And maybe she was so lazy and didn't care because she was so horribly abused and hated by her family, and neglected, that she resulted to starving herself. Which resulted in depression and weakness. Right now though? She didn't want to let though thoughts enter her mind. Why? She was having fun with her mortal enemy. And she wished it could be like this the rest of their lives...
Tsubaki did struggle with the word fertilizer. Sometimes when she was excited or anxious she got tongue tied. She wasn't the smartest pea in the pod though. Maybe it was time to pay attention in school. She was in the mind set things were starting to get better for her in her life. So maybe she could actually succeed and be like in life. She sure hopped. Feeling this happiness made her never want to be sad again. Though she knew she couldn't escape that. No matter how hard she tried.
Tsubaki's thoughts were broken by Asami's musical voice. She went to met his eyes and noticed his eyes were moving up and down a bit. She knew exactly what he was doing and it suddenly made her self conscious. Teachers often sent her to the counselor because they feared I was mentally sick because I was so skinny. Or they would send me to the nurse or cafe to get food. They feared for her life for some odd reason. Her pale cheeks tinted pink a little as she waited for him to stop. She had never looked away from him but her expression quickly matched his own. Nodding, the cat followed the rat and watched him fill up the watering can.
Tsubaki reached out and took the can. "I can!.... I hope." She mumbled the last part but smiled even though she said it. It was a bit heavy and she was scared that she would drop it. When Asami fully let her have it, she almost dropped it. How weak she really was was starting to show through now. Though she found all the strength she could and started evenly distributing water over the dirt of the triangular garden. She was very careful about it. So it took her longer than it maybe should have but when she was done she walked over to Asami with the empty watering can. "All done! How did I do, Asami-Kun?" She asked as if she were a little kid asking her older brother how she had done in helping him with his daily chores. She found herself looking for the approval of Asami now.... And she didn't like this part of being happy. But she wasn't going to let that one thing ruin it. ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ OutOfCandy: So tired! xD And yesh I does :3
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Posted: Fri Apr 13, 2012 8:38 pm
Asami X ● What's the point in trying to be someone you're not? You're only lying to yourself. ● X  *♥*~ Asami smiled, his mind was going many miles an hour. He always thought of her as an enemy, forever and that's how it was since the beginning of time. But he wondered why their present had to reflect the past of the Zodiac, why were they destined to be mortal enemies for all eternity? For the first time in his life, he actually questioned his fate with Tsubaki. Growing up, he was always told that the cat was his enemy and he never questioned why, so why now did he? He got a perplexed look on his face as he thought about it, destiny was in his own hands wasn't it? Wasn't this his life? Sure God was an important person in his life, but did that give God the right to control everything about him? He didn't know, perhaps he would think more of it later on.
He watched her pour the water evenly on the soil and he nodded, picking up the bag of fertilizer. She looked so clumbsy holding the watering can, but all he did was smile. He walked over to the watery mud and dug his hands into the big bag that he held easily, pulling his hand out and dropping hundreds of small beads into the muddy soil. He spread them evenly onto the ground and then got on his hands and knees and started to kneed the beads into the soil, making his hands all muddy in the process.."You did very well Tsubaki-Chan" He chuckled softly, then continued to kneed the soil between his hands and fingers.
He looked up at her, she seemed like a small child when she looked at him for approval, he smiled warmly, showing her that she did indeed do very well. She was actually catching the concept and basic way of making a garden from scratch.."Now we have to mix the fertilizer and the soil together, but it's dirty, hope you dont mind" He smiled challengingly, giving her some kind of a playful challenge. But this was a healthy challenge. (OOC: I know how you feel.. Work is killing me. And thank you Lully-Chan♥)
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Posted: Sun Apr 15, 2012 7:35 am
т ѕ υ в α к ιThe ɔ ʋ ʀ ʂ ɘ ɗ Cat « / ɝ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ╔══════════════╗ Can you love me?╚══════════════╝ « / ɝ Tsubaki didn't know why she had always treated the rat like her enemy... She remembered being little and always trying to be so nice to rat, always trying to join in and play with the other zodiac when he did. Even sometimes when he wasn't. She had been near the rat all her life though. They were born so close together that she always felt a draw to him. As they got older and the rat got more harsh and mean towards her, she locked that draw away and started fighting it so it wouldn't come back. Maybe that's why she had followed the old legend for so darn long. It just had been in their nature from day one.
Looking up at the rat, she couldn't help but smile. Maybe all these years she had been looking for his approval. Fought to be stronger and smarter than him, just so he would see how good she was at something and accept her... She was having a lot of fun right now. And she felt accepted for once. The only other zodiac she had ever had fun with before was the little tiger. But that little girl clung to everyone of the zodiac and she had never had this much fun with her. Well in all honesty the things she did with the tiger weren't that fun. They were silly board games that she was bad at so they made her mad. She wasn't smart even for those stupid little things. Pushing all that away though, the cat smiled at the rat with her pink tinted cheeks. She hadn't noticed the questioning look on this face because by the time she turned back to him after wetting the dirt, he was smiling again.
Tsubaki had done her part, so not to mess it up, she just watched him putt down the fertilizer and seeds. She watched what he was doing with the seeds. His words all made her cry. Not sadly but happily. Her face was shocked for a moment before it was replaced with a sweet, excited, extremely happy smile. Before he even spoke, she was walking over to where he was to help. "Nope!" She giggled happily. So the cat mimicked the rat's actions. She reached it the bag, but with both hands instead of one like the rat, and carefully pulled out some seeds and spread them in the muddy soil. Then she looked at what his hands were doing and she did the same.
"I know this sounds gross... But I don't mind getting dirty... Because I feel like I'm... almost one with the outside. With the water and dirt. They bring me comfort... That's why I always run away up here. Away from the city. Away from society..." She told him, her voice soft and sincere. As she told him this and mixed the fertilizer and soil together, she had a happy thoughtful look on her face. "The big city scares me. That's why I sprint into the house when I get home. I walk slow because I'm scared to go home... But by the time I get there I much more afraid of the cars and the loud noises of the city that I'm relieved to go to my room. So I can get ready to run away again." She told him, fighting the tears easily. She didn't even understand herself telling him these things. She turned her head to him with glass looking eyes. "I'm sorry... Asami-Kun. I just had to get that out. I've never told anyone that!" She giggled and continued to mimic his actions. Though her job wasn't as skilled as his. ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆OutOfCandy: ^^ Sorry I didn't reply last night. :< I didn't back till late and I had been up since 2 am and I was super tired D;.
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Posted: Mon Apr 16, 2012 8:40 pm
Asami X ● What's the point in trying to be someone you're not? You're only lying to yourself. ● X *♥*~ Asami knew his past wasn't something he's proud of, he'd done things and said things he knew he shouldn't have, but he knew he couldn't take it back now. All he could do was look toward the future and try to make the best of it, try and correct it before it was too late. He started thinking back when he he'd first met God, the God was older than him and he was just a little kid back then. he felt a strong connection with the male, feeling like it was destiny or something for them to meet and be close with one another, but that soon changed in Asami's mind. The male was easily angered, violent, and just all around not a very nice person. The image was shattered, for the little child he once was.
He remembered that he was a playful child, only getting time outside with the other Zodiac members for a short time. He got along with everyone evenly, except Tsubaki. The Ox and him were very close, even though there was a small childish feud between them, They both got over it though, which was probably a good thing. He chuckled to himself, remembering some good times when they rebelled against the adults. He was a devious little tween back then as well, but in all his memories, he couldn't think of one time when he was nice to the cat. His purple eyes looked up at her, memorizing her face as it was now, happy.
He remaind silent as she spoke, sinking all her words in and just making sure to remember everything she'd said. He swore to himself that he would try to make things work, and that meant trying to get to know her better so he could try and understand her more, instead of thinking she was stupid all the time. Which, deep inside, he regretted right now. When she started talking about wanting to get home, but being too afraid to go home, something inside of him got depressed. He felt like she felt the same way he did, he never wanted to be at the Sohma house. He was always afraid of what the God would do to him next, but he understood now that they weren't so different in the end. He looked up at her and reached over, cupping her cheek with his muddy hand and looking deep into her glassy eyes.."Don't be sorry" He said softly, then blinked when he noticed he'd gotten mud on her face. His cheeks burned a bright red.."S-Sorry!" He said quickly and his first reaction was him taking his shirt off. He did so and wiped the mud off her face, then placed his black jacket back on, making sure to hide the scars on his back. (OOC: It's ok. I've been prettty busy as well)
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Posted: Tue Apr 17, 2012 8:24 pm
т ѕ υ в α к ιThe ɔ ʋ ʀ ʂ ɘ ɗ Cat « / ɝ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ╔══════════════╗ Can you love me?╚══════════════╝ « / ɝ Tsubaki would never forget the time when they were little and Asami pushed her off the pouch, causing her to severely cut open her knees. She cried for hours till the dragon came home and took care of her. Even though he had only been a teenager at the time, he already knew many medical things since he knew he would probably end up being the family doctor when he got older anyway. And while all this was happening that stupid rat ran over to suck up to the god. That was one of the days that drastically turned the cat around from trying to get along with the rat to trying to show him up all the time.
While the rat went outside to play with the zodiac, the god had her locked in a dark room by herself most of the time. He only let her out so she could go to school. Then she would be pushed back into the dark room all over again till he would let her eat. And sometimes he didn't. It start when she was 4 or 5 and ended when she was 10. So it didn't last that long. And she only had to be in there at night and it was to make her stronger. That's what she told herself to make it not seem so bad. When she was 10 she got her home room and she spent more time outside. But she spent it alone in the back yard, bouncing a ball by herself. When the dragon wasn't studying, he would come play with her. And when the rat felt like it, he would come back there to torment her. After a few years she found ways to run off to the woods without getting caught and beat by the god. He only caught her once and it was the first time she did it. She got more sneaker after that though by spending more time in her room for awhile.
All the other zodiac members were always playing with the rat they got along so well with. So they never bothered to come and try to get along with the cat or give her chance. She honestly taught herself not to care and lock away her heart. To make it so stone cold and her feelings so numb that it would never affect her as bad as the first time. The first time it affected her it became so bad that the little 12-year-old she was, tried to drown herself in the bathtub. Though the little boar though had to figure it out and he ran off to get help from the dragon. Stupid little struck-boy.
As she spoke, Tsubaki's tears really did want to break through. Something about the moment though brought a peace to her that overwhelmed those tears so that she didn't cry. Right now she kind of did feel stupid. Didn't she always though? Somewhere inside her knew she was a stupid, worthless being. Her glassy, glossy eyes grew wide when he cupped her cheeks. She could careless if his hands were muddy. The dam started cracking when he said 'Don't be sorry.' And it cracked more and more as he started wiping her face with his shirt. She didn't even have time to notice anything before he put his jacket back on. Her lip quivered violently and her eyes started watering over. She threw herself into him and her arms tucked up under her chest, resting against his so he could throw her off he wanted. "Worthless.. I'm... wor..th...less..." She mumbled and her sobs were somewhat loud. The one thing that was of great amount was her tears. Which trickled down from her eyes, to her cheeks and down his torso...
There was so much more she wanted to let out. The lump in the throat didn't let her though.. ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆ ▆OutOfCandy: Yeah I had elections for my FFA Chapter that I was apart of it. It's took like 3-4 hours x.x! I hope this isn't too over dramatic... o-o;
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