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 Posted: Wed Aug 24, 2011 9:53 pm
Blackrose_Knight Gods, I want to vomit. Hurricane Irene is now a catagory three, soon to be four. And if she keeps on the same track she has, going to hit the town my grandparents live in. And... they aren't evacuating. *hugs*
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Posted: Thu Aug 25, 2011 7:48 am
Blackrose_Knight Gods, I want to vomit. Hurricane Irene is now a catagory three, soon to be four. And if she keeps on the same track she has, going to hit the town my grandparents live in. And... they aren't evacuating. I've been through many tornadoes, the thing is you usually can't see them headed your way! scream I trust they are doing their best to batten down the hatches since they are refusing to move out of the path?
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Posted: Thu Aug 25, 2011 9:44 pm
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Posted: Fri Aug 26, 2011 1:11 am
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Posted: Thu Sep 01, 2011 7:15 pm
Some days I get so angry about what he took, and what I gave away in so much anger. My heart, hurts, all over again, the scab ripped off and a fresh pang of hate and anger of love lost all over again. What I did hurt me so much, and what he did, even more so. There are some days still I wish I could knife out the damned beating thing and leave it for the birds on the back step. They could make some use of the thing I mangled with my senseless anger.
I think about it a lot. About him. I don't think I should but I do. Some days I wish him well, others I hope he gets hit by a bus with her watching. It might just feel the same for her then. Still so much anger, I try to let go, but it never seems to take. Always something to rip out the scar tissue, to make it bleed anew.
Then I think about what I have now and most of that feeling, the hollowness, goes away. Without what he did, what I did, I wouldn't have the loves I have today. He gifted me that, I think he meant that all along. I wouldn't have the support I do now, the self actualization, the freedom, the strength.
Heh, all this pondering over why I chose to hang my muse by a noose until dead. I killed her because I hated her. The optimism she brought. The heart she had from which my words came from. Bah. Now I have to find a new muse, so I can write again. Really write again. This time, I am not going to kill her.
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Posted: Fri Sep 02, 2011 12:10 am
Am I allowed to love you? Everything is so explosive, and raw and I love it. I think I might love you. I just don't know if I can keep these feelings or if I have to let them go.
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Posted: Sat Sep 03, 2011 10:46 pm
Best part of the night Annette eating some ******** hot ******** hot sauce. Like... it can burn your skin hot.
Annette is making strange noises, it amuses me.
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Posted: Fri Sep 09, 2011 10:30 am
I got a fluttery heart thingy when Annette made an offhand comment about killing the neighbors so I can buy their house to keep me close by.
I am a strange, strange girl.
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Posted: Fri Sep 09, 2011 4:50 pm
Blackrose_Knight I got a fluttery heart thingy when Annette made an offhand comment about killing the neighbors so I can buy their house to keep me close by. I am a strange, strange girl. Aw ;o; that's actually really sweet :3 Both the comment and the flutteryness afertwards. 4laugh
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Posted: Sat Sep 10, 2011 9:10 am
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Posted: Sat Sep 10, 2011 11:34 am
Mameoyashi Blackrose_Knight I got a fluttery heart thingy when Annette made an offhand comment about killing the neighbors so I can buy their house to keep me close by. I am a strange, strange girl. Aw ;o; that's actually really sweet :3 Both the comment and the flutteryness afertwards. 4laugh I know. I am such a goober. I like what Annette and I have going. Whatever it may be.
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Posted: Wed Sep 14, 2011 11:47 pm
Things are moving in the right direction I think. heart
I am a little nervous, well, more afraid of opening my heart up. B did some nasty things to my trust and emotional dealings. I did a number on myself, he was not alone in the thrashing of my heart.
I just gotta breathe and go with the flow.
Now to get the balls to have the "awkward where does this relationship stand?" talk with Annette. sweatdrop
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Posted: Thu Sep 15, 2011 10:21 am
Blackrose_Knight Things are moving in the right direction I think. heart I am a little nervous, well, more afraid of opening my heart up. B did some nasty things to my trust and emotional dealings. I did a number on myself, he was not alone in the thrashing of my heart. I just gotta breathe and go with the flow. Now to get the balls to have the "awkward where does this relationship stand?" talk with Annette. sweatdrop You can do it Rosie! mrgreen
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Posted: Thu Sep 15, 2011 6:07 pm
Blackrose_Knight Now to get the balls to have the "awkward where does this relationship stand?" talk with Annette. sweatdrop
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Posted: Thu Sep 15, 2011 11:48 pm
Failzors on my part. Imma chicken. cat_crying
On a side note;
Gods everything you do sends my head spinning in a daze of heat and my soul a flame. What a lovely way to burn... cat_twisted
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