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Posted: Wed Sep 12, 2012 1:25 pm
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Posted: Mon Sep 17, 2012 10:22 pm
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Posted: Tue Oct 02, 2012 7:00 pm
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I need help, I really do now. I won't give detailed descriptions but hopefully enough throughout this
Since about maybe a year ago, or at least a few months ago I been dealing with anxiety, my phobias.. as well as my younger brother. Now I know people will say, "Oh it's just brother and sister fights, it happens all the time." And indeed it does, but I take it more deeply, and get easily emotional when he makes fun of me. Awhile ago, sometimes he said I needed to loose weight, even around our two cousins who usually always came over back then. And at first I kinda shook it off, and sometimes laughed but later on it started to hit me harder.
I currently go to therapy for my phobia of balloons and such, and also now my anxiety of going to school, but we also talk about things such as life, my family, etc. So I started to bring up my brother and my therapist understood. At least some understand.. I know fifteen and sixteen are the years girls usually are concerned about how they look and all. Honestly I'm not, but I am. I am trying to do something about it.. like eating less and healthier, (though I never eaten tons of junk food.) I really only have 'baby fat' as some people call it. And also sometimes he also just bothers me over all, and doesn't understand I get easily emotional. My father stands up for me, but my mom only does sometimes and shakes it off saying like. "Oh, hes just teasing." She honestly doesn't know how much it hurts.
Though I talk about it to my father and also my therapist, I feel depressed at different times to, maybe because of thinking negative thoughts.. but sometimes I can't help it. I'm usually a shy, but bubbly girl. And though I never told anyone, I have thought of suicide, but I would never do that. Just because how my friends and family will feel after I was gone. But it just lingers in my mind. While I am a Christian and such, I do not believe Suicide will send you straight to Hell. I mean, God must forgive those who feel hurt inside, and also those who have no one to turn to in the end. I just don't know what to do..
I feel like the computer is also a way out of thinking negative thoughts, even though now you see tons of cyber bullying. And honestly I never been bullied online nor at school. And I also feel the computers a way to find others across the world who actually get how you feel. I hate how they say now, being addicted to the computer is a illness. I am obsessed and I would get easily bored if I didn't have it, or anything to do at the most.. The only thing that makes me happy are my parents, the rest of my family, friends, my pets, getting into hobbies, and drawing.
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Posted: Sat Feb 23, 2013 12:24 am
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Posted: Sun Jun 02, 2013 4:25 am
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Posted: Sun Jun 02, 2013 4:38 am
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Posted: Sun Jun 02, 2013 7:28 am
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Posted: Fri Jun 14, 2013 9:46 pm
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Posted: Wed Jul 03, 2013 7:17 am
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Posted: Wed Jul 03, 2013 8:51 am
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Posted: Fri Aug 09, 2013 10:45 am
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Posted: Sun Sep 08, 2013 1:12 am
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Posted: Thu Oct 17, 2013 6:27 am
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Posted: Mon Mar 03, 2014 8:27 pm
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