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 Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:31 pm
There's always a chance as long as you have hope. I've almost lost mine.
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Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:33 pm
Hope... I'm not sure what to hope for anymore...
...sure... there's teaching... and I hope to be a good teacher... but what's the point...
You know... it's probably just something that has to be forgotten... I'll never see it...
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Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:35 pm
I feel like crying now.
I should put on mascarra so it runs. That could make for a good photo op.
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Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:36 pm
I'd cry with you if I was nearer... I've wanted to cry for so long...
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Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:38 pm
I can't cry though.
1. I'm training myself not to.
2. I don't want to have puffy red eyes when my grandparents get here.
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Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:40 pm
You're just like me... I'm so accustomed to not cry, I want to cry but cannot when I really need it...
...the only time I can is if... it essentially explodes... until then... I have to deal with this buildup...
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Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:41 pm
Hang in there, you two... and there's NOTHING wrong with a good cry. ^_^
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Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:42 pm
I know, aretoo... I help my friends with their cries all the time...
...I... just can't get myself to cry... I have to wait until my body can't take it anymore... it's... painful.
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Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:43 pm
I don't cry. Hell, when my ex told me he was moving to Michigan, I didn't cry until he was gone. I just pressed my nails into my palms until my hands bled and cursed his parents under every other breath.
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Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:44 pm
Indigo... I know this sounds harsh... but... at least you felt love... at least for a little while...
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Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:45 pm
I know exactly what you mean, actually... I had a nice little nervous breakdown in April when the guy I'm interested first started, um... "practicing" with another guy he knows... Had a nice, long (couple hours) crying session. Fortunately, I'm patient. ^_^
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Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:46 pm
Sentama Lin Indigo... I know this sounds harsh... but... at least you felt love... at least for a little while... That wasn't love. That was lust, despiration, dependence, and borderline abuse, among other things. Why else do you think I flinch when a guy touches me?
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Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:47 pm
I think... I need to find someone to hug... I feel selfish for telling them that I'm sad because I don't have anyone - since they're dealing with it just fine... but... I don't know what else to do...
Edit: Indigo, I'm very sorry... I didn't know... really... I didn't.
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Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:49 pm
Sentama Lin Edit: Indigo, I'm very sorry... I didn't know... really... I didn't. No need to apologize. You didn't know. Anyway, that's part of the reason I'm pretty sure I won't find anyone. I have serious issues now, even if they aren't always obvious.
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Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:50 pm
Dammit... all of my real life friends are busy right now... and none of the guys on my floor would understand...
I have nobody in real life close to me to hug... I'm alone...
I could talk to my hall director... he understands me... but... he's too busy with work... plus it's the weekend; his few days off...
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