SO! There's 4 other girls in my room on the trip. S is out of the drama. TW is a loudmouth, but we've been friends since she came 9th grade. Rough around the edges, but becoming a Christian made her better. ST has been my friend since elementary, but she didn't attend my school until 9th. Sweet, but temperamental and sensitive. Aaand MM...friends since she came 8th. Low confidence, bad sexual past, ADHD and a little difficult to be patient with. She was really loyal, but she pulled away in December and has been fairly apathetic toward me since March.... I need a break already. That was hard to peck. xAx
I'll give you a basic rundown... TW's comments are always unreasonably blunt and rude. She speaks her mind. It makes me mad, but I used to be able to just brush it off (-_-...Anyway! >.>...Next topic.
smile ) when I had more patience. Now that I've been affected by bf sh-t, I can't handle it as well and tend to go ('I wanna slap/curse at you, but...' Whatever. -____- *stops talking for a bit and turns attention away*) Remember this for later...
MM gets the couch/living room area of the suite, and the rest share beds. A problem arises like 2 days into the trip-- we notice that she hasn't showered. Long story short, all of us say she faked it; it's obvious. We tell an adult or two and ask for advice. S (out of later drama) demands that we confront her. But after another day or two of politely hinting at it to MM, we give up. S doesn't and kinda drags it on among those in the beds. She especially continues with me, since we're the cleanest of the group. Remember this...
So I was expecting my period around Wed, but I woke up to it Tuesday morning unprepared...That means that the rest of the trip is filled with fatigue and cramp, since my first few days are heavy/bad. All the girl know (or should) that I feel like crap those days and always complain. So. I did. Especially cuz we walk around everywhere to destinations and get to bed late. Everyone but S gets testy about it and doesn't care anymore. So I'm just like, "okay...cool. Nobody cares that I feel like sh*t."
Then MM starts acting ruder and more solitary as the trip progresses, specifically toward me. I have no idea why. She keeps being blatantly rude when I ask for simple things... Like a fuc*ing nail clipper after I show her that almost all of my nails are snagged and broken from mission work. "Why can't you go buy one downstairs?? They probably sell them!".... The fu*k? And she always gives this look of almost hatred toward me like:stop breathing near me; it burns. So my patience with her is gone. I'm convinced that she doesn't like me at all, and I just need to stay away from her because otherwise i'll be nasty back.
S is just S. She's cool, but she's a heifer at times. I'm okay with that cuz she never changes. You know? She's almost oblivious to it all.
Now ST and TW start acting mean. They take everything I say wrong, yell or hit me in the stomach (their new thing that pisses me off to no end and almost earns them a punch, except for my self-control. Yes, I have warned them. No, they don't listen.). So I quickly try to remedy and explain before getting pissy, but they're like 'uh-huh...sure' or '...seriously?' or (this is TW
smile '*are you stupid look*' that makes no sense, blah blah'... So I'm sick of being accused or misunderstood at this point and just end the conversation and move to other people or go 'whatever' to cool off and let it die. They take it as me having an attitude when I'm tryin to do the opposite. So we're not getting along anymore.
After 2 nights straight when I got angry and was about to make someone in there cry, thus leaving the room to rant to my mom on the phone or another person, I decided to find another room to sleep in for the last night. That failed cuz the rooms were at full capacity. So I sounded an alarm and ended up having to deal with it after starting to pal and having to stay... This was the last straw that night before I tried to move rooms (Tuesday):
*knock knock*
I'm expecting MM to get it. She's in our living room while we're in the back. She doesn't again, and I'm irritated and get it. ST follows me. Girl's crying and begging MM to tell her what happened....'Huh?? Oh, my. What's wrong?' MM goes with her downstairs to tell whatever. ST and I are shocked and confused. I close the door.
"Wow. So that explains a lot..." Obviously she's going through some bs.
ST: *stomach slap* That was mean!!
'What the hell...' "That wasn't AT ALL. I was serious!"
ST: Just because she hasn't showered doesn't mean you can keep making fun of her!
'....' "I wasn't even talking about that! In fact, I've tried to kill that! I mean that's why she hasn't talked to us, always closes the door between us, etc..."
TW: It's because she doesn't like you. Now quit it, stop it (something like that. I forgot out of anger.)
'.........^_^** Hold your tongue...' "We're all tired of each other at this point..."
TW: No.....We're tired of...
'You're gonna imply some s**t like that? Oh. Okay. Screw you.'. "You know what?!" *leaves, makes arrangements to switch*
*comes later with another girl*
TW: What are you doing?
"Don't worry about it."
TW: *weird look* I'm not worrying...
"Don't get involved, forget it, whatever! Pick!"
....
So long story short, I stayed up with other people having drama issues (a whole 'nother story...) and talked to some adults, including TW's mom, to avoid my room as long as possible (until 1ish am). She talked to them. I came back in the room an hour-ish later.
TW's mom: Nariana feels like everyone's against her. They feel that you complain too much. S is just S (lol). Story about friends making up eventually, etc.
"I really don't feel like talking anymore tonight."
Mom: That's perfectly fine, etc. Blah blah. *leaves*
Next morning, I wake up to an apology/but you complain letter from TW and MM, who left on the early flight....Hm, okay. Nothing's wrong with S. ST and I gradually make up unofficially. So we're fine, I guess. The other two... I have to think about it. I can't deal with more drama sh*t like that. I have my own emotional crap, and you don't see me lashing out. I just complain. That's my venting. So.... The end, I suppose.
That took almost an hour. Enjoy it. D<
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