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 Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2012 2:38 pm
Back home now. My friend's PSP is likely to be returned to seller.
Sleepy... ate too much at the bar and grill we had lunch at. Nice to be back home, though. Parents are occupied with football, I get to relax and use my own computer again.
Speaking of football, go Steelers! 7 to 6 in Denver's favor at the time of this posting, but it's still first quarter. Ben's got a lot of time to turn this game around.
For now, though, I don't have the energy to pay attention to football. Time to veg out, screw around on Gaia, maybe indulge in some Skyrim or RP later.
Cheers, and good luck to all you workers/students/people-that-have-important-s**t-to-do-on-Monday!
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Posted: Mon Jan 09, 2012 11:41 am
Well, Steelers aren't going to the Super Bowl this year. Oh well.
Good news: Half.com is the most amazing place ever. I got all (ALL) of my textbooks for about 120 dollars, including shipping? That's less than half of what I spent last year. Yay, having saved money, I feel comfortable spending it now!
Bad news: I think I'm getting sick. A cough, some stuffy nose, and at least one issue with my stomach per day for the past 4 or 5 days. Not running a temperature, but that doesn't mean diddly. I'll try taking some acetaminophen in a moment, hopefully it'll help out.
Otherwise, nothing new... come the 15th, I'll be moving back into the dorms, then classes start the 17th. It'll be nice to have something that isn't Booty Grab or Skyrim to occupy me.
Till next time!
Leif
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Posted: Mon Jan 09, 2012 9:05 pm
Two updates in one day! Whoooooa! So, cool facts: I'm getting the EXACT same 2000+ dollar check from my loan this semester as I did last semester. Combine this with the money I saved on textbooks, and what do we get? We get Matthew with a Princess Luna hoodie and two new Twilight Sparkle shirts. Yes, a little bit of splurging, but it will satisfy my buying tendencies for awhile, not to mention expand my brony collection beyond the ubiquitous "Brony" shirt and Spike's Rarity shirt ( pictured here ) Had a lovely dinner tonight at Genghis Grill with Mom and Dad. Yay, spicy Mongolian stir fry. Otherwise, things are well. Take care, all!
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Posted: Wed Jan 11, 2012 8:54 pm
I've lost a couple pounds. Yay.
Been kinda lonely these past few days. Mame's not been feeling well and Reya's been rather sad lately. She's going to have to leave Cephy's place and go back to living with Arizona Job Corps soon, potentially facing homelessness again, not to mention ANOTHER busted phone and insurance troubles.
I feel so... useless from here.
I can't even honestly tell her everything will be alright, and if she has to give up her computer and can't get a new phone (a possibility that I honestly think won't be too unlikely), then I'll be completely out of touch with her. She's had it hard, I've had it comparatively EXTREMELY easy... and yet I still can't help.
Even financially, I'd be all too willing to send a hundred dollars or so, just to see her through till things get better, but I can't even do that much since I've learned my mother occasionally opens my mail to check my bank statements.
All I can do is hope and pray for both of them... I love you two, and I hope things turn around soon.
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Posted: Fri Jan 13, 2012 10:22 pm
Bummer of a night, decent day.
Had some good intellectual conversation with a colleague of my mother's... that fed promptly into one of the worst family nights I've ever had. I probably said a whopping 5 sentences between my various family members that didn't relate to "How are you doing in school?"
Yay, being the only person not drinking and not smoking. God damn, I could hardly even talk to my uncle (the one person that I feel I can socialize with in that group) without getting edgy cravings for a cigarette (his garage was practically an atmosphere of smoke between my other uncles and cousins (some of whom are younger than me(!!)). I've never felt so tense and out of place in years... nor have I wanted to smoke so badly since I quit back in Thanksgiving.
But that's all over, now. Having lunch with friends tomorrow, then it's packing up and getting ready to leave back to college on Sunday. Thank goodness... I need to get out of here.
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Posted: Sun Jan 22, 2012 12:03 am
Long time, no update. College has made things rather... interesting.
Interesting and forbidding in terms of free time. Do I have no free time? Hardly. Do I have PRIVATE time? HA! Seems I'm just as popular in West Hall as ever... constantly people in my room (even as I type this, though the smaller-than-usual audience of three is watching a movie). Typing personal updates in Gaia has been rather difficult between the general company, let alone the fact that my computer has more or less turned into a DotA 2 machine for long stretches of time.
Here's a rundown of how things are outside of free time:
Classes: Good, for the most part. IT is still a bit intimidating, but I still have plenty of alternative sources of help. Statistics is going to be TEDIOUS as all hell. Psychology promises to be neat, and physics will be a decent review. Unfortunately, I have labs or physical recreation in the evening, EVERY evening, except for Friday and the weekend.
Health: Trying my damnedest to be better about that. Sixteen pounds is going to be tough to lose. I've been replacing french fries with rice and trying to eat chicken. I've also been trying to give away most of my Christmas sweets and goodies--- if junk is around, I'll eat it if I get so much as the slightest of munchies. Hopefully the lost weight, Taijutsu, and some weight-lifting with friends of mine will get me back on track.
Relationships: Things for Reya seem to potentially be getting better. She should hopefully have a job in a calling center for AT&T before too long, perhaps her own apartment as well. As for Mame... well, she and I haven't really had the chance to chat for awhile. Hope you're okay, love.
Overall: I'm well. Things should be okay.
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Posted: Sun Jan 22, 2012 6:54 am
LupineLeif Overall: I'm well. Things should be okay. That's good to hear, Leif! Keep on doing what you're doing!
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Posted: Thu Feb 02, 2012 11:59 am
Long time, no post.
Mame and I have decided to let an intimate relationship rest indefinitely, until both of us are more stable in our lives. I still consider her to be my best friend in the universe, and we are both still on good terms.
Where one chapter closes, another begins. I've developed an interest in a fellow tech student (I'll not disclose her name) that was mutual. She's still not totally familiar with polyamory, but she's willing to learn and give a relationship a go. She's an absolute sweetheart and we share a number of interests, so there's no doubt we'll be able to spend a lot of time together. It's also wonderful to have a partner that's locally available... hopefully this will help lessen the hurt that comes with wanting physical contact.
Otherwise, nothing new to report.
Take care!
Leif
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Posted: Fri Feb 03, 2012 12:18 pm
I'm so happy for you and her <3 Fate has some impeccable timing when she wants to.
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Posted: Mon Feb 20, 2012 9:12 am
Updates:
School: Continuously procrastinating.
Money: Somewhat tight, but internship still bodes well.
Family: Good terms, they enjoyed my roommate.
Health: Trying to get back on track with exercise. I have a buddy I'm working out with now, but we aren't exactly on a consistent schedule yet.
Relationships:
Reya managed to get a job working at an AT&T Call Center. She's trying to save up for a car ASAP since her employment is a probationary one (meaning that, for any reason, they can remove her, including tardiness. Arizona buses run late? Toooo bad!)
Aforementioned new partner and I are doing well. She's extremely nervous about physical intimacy, and I can't blame her, but she's still gradually opening up and getting better. I want to be emotionally available for her, but I'm afraid I'm terrible at knowing what to say at times. I can offer support and affection but wisdom and advice? Different story entirely, and the offered affection isn't always desired (in a physical sense. A hug and a cuddle can make one feel better, but not if someone's nervous about lots of physical intimacy).
Will it work out? I'm not entirely sure, but I'm going to make sure to voice my concerns about our interaction and see if everything really is okay. Over my romantic life I've learned that having a relationship can sometimes be more painful than ending one, so I want to make sure that's not going to be the case with this.
Other news:
Furcon this summer. Missing out on Bronycon, but really, paying for a hotel room and gas is cheaper than paying for a plane flight, hotel room, rental, and otherwise. Not to mention, I'm not familiar at ALL with the brony crowd whereas I've already got some foothold at this particular furry convention having one last year's poker tourney there. Regardless, it'll be fun, and I get more than my fair share of pony on the internet on my own time.
Speaking of ponies, Rarity is best heart
That's all for now. Over and out.
~Leif
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Posted: Mon Feb 20, 2012 9:30 am
heh. rarity is my typical picking-on pony. =w= I prefer Pinky Pie.
anywho, that situation (about her being uncomfortable with physical intimacy and you not being confident in your ability to provide emotional support in the form of advice or encouragement) sounds like a real uphill battle. sad I wish you the best, and hope it works out. I know I've faced similar issues before.
it can be difficult, but it works itself out in the end if both parties apply themselves. smile
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Posted: Mon Feb 27, 2012 11:16 pm
So the most recent ladyfriend and I are no longer an item. Between the lack of chemistry and the loss of that new relationship energy, I felt like I wouldn't be well-suited for. Thankfully, we'll content ourselves with friendship and it wasn't a violent breakup.
Other than that, nothing too shabby...
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Posted: Tue Feb 28, 2012 9:55 am
LupineLeif Other than that, nothing too shabby... That's always good news to hear.
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Posted: Tue Mar 13, 2012 9:21 pm
Spring Break.
Missed out on a trip to Arizona to visit Reya because I wanted to take an internship here... that internship has half fallen through. I've not even gotten to go in once and won't be going in till Thursday. Thanks, Dad.
Reya is extremely depressed and I'm unable to console her. She just went black on me, I'm relying on a friend of mine and close friend of hers to make sure she's okay, considering he's physically with her. <******** up a number of midterms/projects/labs that I missed, some my fault some not. Doesn't matter, I'm probably not going to be able to take care of it all, my GPA will enter the shitter, and I'm likely going to be losing my scholarship and any hope of being financially sound for the bulk of my adult life.
Here's hoping that Spring Break doesn't suck, that the family that I'll be visiting for the second half of the break doesn't invite drama, that we have a fair supply of alcohol here, and that I won't lose everything.
Can't say cheers in good spirit, so I hope y'all are better than I am.
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Posted: Sat Mar 17, 2012 11:16 am
Much better news.
Internship is back online, I have a guaranteed summer job. I'm going to be getting training this summer to become a "Crestron Certified Programmer." It's simply GUI programming, but for electrical devices, fire alarms lights, etc. The guy who was training me is their only Crestron programmer, and a.) he's not even certified and b.) he's a moron that can't program worth a damn, so getting actual classes will put me in a valuable position over the summer.
Also, as Mame has told me so often, where one door closes, another opens.
A friend of mine from North Carolina, I'm going to call her Alice, had broken up with her boyfriend of four years about a month ago. While I was in distress over my previous update, she let me vent to her, and that sparked up conversation.
Now, unlike my last relationship, Alice has been a long-time friend of mine, but never more than a friend. We played World of Warcraft together and she's been a very reliable source of commissioned artwork, but beyond that, we were just good buddies.
A combination of loneliness, casual interest, new energy at getting to reconnect, and a bit of physical interest, and things have kinda sparked. We're in the early stage where we're finding each other cute and dorky, but she's also a lot more emotionally mature than my previous partner was, and without as much emotional baggage. Despite our flirty excitement, we're definitely keeping things in perspective concerning distance and our current emotional states... but I think there's real possibility, and better yet, real compatibility here. No more awkward tip-toeing around what's physically or emotionally appropriate or not! No more extreme insecurities about ourselves! We can just be fun and goofy together.
I still have a metric ******** of homework to take care of, but right now, I'm kinda too excited to care.
Cheers, in the best of spirits,
Matt
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