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 Posted: Fri Oct 28, 2011 9:01 pm
Odessa watched the dancing end and sighed, tonight wasn't too bad after all and as the hula dancers left and the music played on the sun had just started to set behind them, lowering itself into the ocean as the sky slowly started to change into reds, pinks, oranges and yellows, it was beautiful, she ate some more dinner as she watched, what a truly beautiful ending to such a terrible day.
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Posted: Sat Oct 29, 2011 2:20 am
Gersif too watched the sun set "Looks like tomorrow will have nice weather" he smiled reassuringly before finishing off a prickly ring of fruit he almost felt the need to battle with the number of times it pricked him.. it hadn't been worth it but with all the effort he had put into it he was going to finish it! In all his travels he had learned a great deal about reading the weather, it was often the difference between a miserably wet night or a warm dry one and the sunset seemed to promise a beautiful day to follow the beautiful night. Gersif moved onto the meat on his plate things were getting too sweet for him and he was starting to get gut rot from all the fruit, he wasn't use to it and couldn't handle it.
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Posted: Sun Oct 30, 2011 2:02 am
"Thank goodness for that" Odessa said, liking the fact that the cooler weather was coming but she was glad to get as many sunny days in as possible before the cooler weather was here for good.
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Posted: Wed Nov 02, 2011 8:54 pm
Gersif nodded nearly in bliss over the well prepared meats he rarely got treats like this never willing to spent the time preparing something just for him. After swallowing what was in his mouth he spoke. "Since tomorrow will be so nice I was thinking it might be nice to teach Oliver some things about divination, would you like to join us?" The only two things he could find that they had in common, Oliver and divination, he figured if he stood any kind of chance it was there. She could teach them about cards and he could teach them about runes, seemed an even trade.
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Posted: Thu Nov 03, 2011 8:54 am
Odessa nodded "sure, perhaps have a picnic lunch again?" She suggested to him "I am sure Lenore won't mind giving us some of this left over food and we can get a little bit of dessert and it should be a nice day" she said, knowing she had a date but meh, that wasn't till later so they could just have the day to themselves before realising one thing and stopped, thinking about it and knowing it was going to be really selfish of her. "Gersif, is it wrong that I don't want Morpheus and Calliope to go? I mean, don't get me wrong, I know they have to, they shouldn't be here and they have family waiting for them on the other side and know they would love to have them but when I was with my friend earlier she said something that made me think and...and I am actually wondering if I...we shouldn't tell Oliver the truth, yes he would be upset, may give us the silent treatment and will, at the most, probably run away into hiding but..." Odessa looked to him "this is part of why I want Morpheus and Calliope to stay, sure he won't physically be able to see them and he will just have to be told what Electra says and all but if he has us to physically be with and yet still has his parents here in some form or another it wouldn't be so bad would it?" She said, knowing that it probably did.
Odessa pressed on with her thoughts "he and Electra may just end up being close as well and she and him may even get to be friends in some way, I know it would be hard and this emotional turmoil and stress is not want I want for the poor darling but right now, if he knew the truth and his parents were still here, even in the spiritual sense and they could, in some way, contact him with the power ghosts do seem to possess when Electra isn't around just think how happy that may just make him, it will be hard if this happens, we know that, but if he knows he still has us and his real parents, sort of, maybe it wouldn't be too hard on him and he would still have Thane and Sayako as well to help out and what not as well" she said as she looked back down at the table in front of her. It was horrible to ask if maybe Morpheus and Calliope could stay, knowing they would be better off in the afterlife, especially when they had family there but she also knew that their family may be understanding of the situation as well, knowing that a parents job is to be with their child, no matter whether it is in death or not, no parent ever stops loving their children even in death but then maybe she was just just being selfish as she said, maybe she should have just kept this to herself.
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Posted: Thu Nov 03, 2011 9:06 pm
Gersif frowned shaking his head, he knew the nice night couldn't last, truth and a fight or lie and peace? He held his tongue not answering, intently inspecting his food, silence seemed the wisest option. The silence was mounting on him though and he couldn't keep it up. He sighed... it had been such a nice night...
"You're feelings aren't wrong, misguided perhaps but not wrong, they simply are how you feel. That can never be wrong." He glanced for a moment to gauge her reaction before going back to inspecting his food. "What did your friend say?"
He was completely and utterly against it, ghosts belonged in the beyond, if the didn't go neither they or their loved ones could move forward and would never know how to deal with loss. They had taken that lesson away from Oliver but telling him now might force him to lose even more... trust being one of them. He could also lose the chance at befriending Electra, a greater loss for the both of them than anyone might realize. Electra was innocent in this but there was a big chance Oliver could blame her as much as the rest of them. "They don't need ghosts to be friends, they are good kids, they will be friends on their own, just have faith." He had seen things go bad before and he feared the same would happen again, the feelings of hurt and betrayal forcing Oliver to push them away just when he needed them most and the best they could do would be to give him space to think it out waiting on the side lines for him to be ready to talk again, but he would have no one in the mean time he could talk to, everyone he ever knew and loved was in on the lie where would he turn? His sense of trust and security would be shattered... every fiber of his being screamed no but his words had to be just right to avoid her going off the deep end and keeping the souls here anyway.... it would take a gamble... a gamble he didn't like taking..."You know what's right... do what your heart tells you. It may not be what you want but it will be what's best." He sat eyes closed tails switching trying to stay but it felt like ants were crawling on him and shifting uncomfortably where he sat did neither of them any good.
He stood up "I need to get some air" and walked out to the water letting it lap against his ankles his eyes on the horizon the lights from the decorations sparkling on the waters surface, his tails switching as he thought, trying to figure out how to proceed.
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Posted: Thu Nov 03, 2011 10:34 pm
Odessa listened to him and watched him leave and sighed, getting up after a few moments and walked over to the ocean with him, walking in and reaching where he was and just stood there, a couple of water Kitsu's were jumping up out of the water, playing with each other, teasing each other from the looks of things and Odessa smiled at them, they looked like they were enjoying each others company greatly but after a few moments she couldn't help but sigh softly a little, watching them end up sitting on a rock and cuddling agianst each other as they watched the sun set. As OIdessa watched one of them ended up licking the others cheek before nuzzling the other, it was such a beautoful sight, two kitsus that seemed so in love with each other, they had the perfect night for their frolicking but Odessa looked back at Gersif and smiled softly a little "would you believe you and her share a brain?" She said as she looked out to the two water kitsu's again "she said the same thing, sort of, she said 'I should do what my heart says and not my head, ignore what you think might be best for Oliver right now and do what you know would be right for his parents, they do deserve that much at least' though she did also say before that that if I truly did want his parents kept here, in the physical realm would I like the consequences that followed.
As much as I know what the answer is I also can't accept it, I keep thinking that whilst the cons do out weigh the pros I want to side with the pros, I want to let Oliver know everything was just some lie to have him not feel bad about losing his parents but as a con on my mental list stated he would hate me I just feel like I want to take that risk no matter if my heart is telling me no" she said with a small sigh as she nodded "I know Electra and Oliver will become friends in time, ghosts or no ghosts, she is his aunt after all, but still..." she said trailing off, a small sigh escaped her lips, maybe what Crystal and Gersif said were right, she couldn't keep them here and she knew that no matter how much she wanted not to.
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Posted: Thu Nov 03, 2011 11:19 pm
Gersif glanced to Odessa before watching the water again letting her be the first to speak. "She is wise and there is nothing wrong with hope..." he wanted to say 'just don't let it be misguided, but he was afraid it might come off as judgmental and so far they seemed to manage disagreeing well. Or perhaps she was simply hoping for permission despite knowing the right path to chose "The truth can be hard to accept at times... but it doesn't make it any less true. Trust me, I'm an expert there." He looked at her with a sad smile. Lessons learned the hard way, he hoped she could trust his experience and not have to learn it the hard way as well. His eyes went to the horizon giving her her space to think, there was nothing else he could say that would make any difference, so in the silence he stood with her, watching and waiting
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Posted: Fri Nov 04, 2011 10:50 am
Odessa sighed "you are right, I know this so, can we at least just have a few more days or so with them? For two reasons, give them the joy of seeing their son be happy, even if it is in the false pretences that we are his parents, the least the parents deserve is to let them see their son be happy with his life, whether it will be with us or not is not even a factor here, they just deserve to see their son be happy, enjoying life, not having a care in the world, whether he will forever be a child or somehow there may be a way of letting him grow some day, right now he deserves to be a child and enjoy everything there is to being one. Oliver lost his father then his mother and was left to enjoy half his life while wondering if his mother would ever come back and I don't want them to leave knowing their son isn't happy, even just a little bit, they deserve to have some time with him even if it is just for a few days or so and he doesn't know it, the least we can do is let them have that" she said as she thought about the lies they were feeding the poor kid and looked at Gersif "besides that, we still have alot to talk about with them, quirks Oliver has, foods he likes and doesn't like, toys he may still have somewhere etc and there is one other things..." she trailed off as she took a deep breath and let it out.
"I was thinking also of maybe telling him we are not his parents for another reason, when Calliope and Morpheus go, a part of me wants him to have his own personal message from his parents, meaning, that it is fine and all that we can try and stand in for them when they leave but also because it would be nice if they all could have some time together one last time as well, I know Oliver is happy without knowing what really happened and he would be distraught if he found out and all but a part of me just feels like Calliope and Morpheus should have that last little bit of time with their son, I still feel horrible not being able to give them that. I know promised I wouldn't say anything and I won't but still" she said as she lay down in a defeatist sort of way "I....I just hate knowing that they will be going and I can't even give Oliver this one last thing, he deserves this, he deserves to say goodbye to his parents and know the truth" she said as she looked away as tears started to fall down her cheeks "I promised I wouldn't say anything but this is just way too hard, I was an idiot in thinking I could do this but I can't, not now, not when the two Kitsu's who should be able to say goodbye to their son can't because of the idiotic lie I started, I was just a fool for ever thinking this would work out" she said as she sat there and thought this out, Oliver needed to know the truth, she just really couldn't do this anymore, his parents had to have the chance to properly say goodbye to him, she wasn't his mother, never would be, packing lies on top of lies was just going to get worse and worse in the future and it had to stop now, Oliver had the right to say goodbye to his parenbts just as much as they did to him...didn't they?
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Posted: Fri Nov 04, 2011 11:53 am
Gersif nodded, if it made it easier on her they could wait a few more days. Allowing for goodbyes could be cathartic for them. He couldn't deny them that. She was right too they needed information.
He laid himself down beside her shoulder against her shoulder in a 'I'm here to support you type way.' "Would you do me a favor?" He looked at her softly his voice gentle. "Close you eyes and watch yourself tell him, watch how it all plays out, don't instruct the scene, don't try to guide the outcome, just let it play out in your head. Is that outcome something you can live with?" He had watched it play out in his own and it would be hard to do, something he really didn't want to, it could damage Oliver more than not telling him could. He nudged her cheek whipping away her tear with his nose. "Keep playing it out in your head telling him in different ways until you have an out come you can live with. I haven't found one yet... I keep seeing the hurt in his eyes the sense of betrayal, him pushing us away in hurt leaving himself no one to talk to, everyone he knows and loves is in on the lie, where will he go? Where will he turn? We can wait on the side lines until he is ready for us to try to repair the damage we have caused, but he will never be able to trust us again, his whole sense of trust and security will be shattered he wont be able to truly trust again" He frowned "I just don't know if I can do that to him... but perhaps you will have better luck than I" He watched the last rays of sun sink below the horizon, he didn't like this but what could he do? He had to trust her to do the right thing, trusting was hard for him... but he had to try.
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Posted: Fri Nov 04, 2011 1:55 pm
"Not now, later" she said getting up, sun now having gone and soon the moon would raise "I feel like something to eat, come, lets go back" she said as she got up, his words stuck in her head, food will make her feel better, food now, thinking later, she will end up telling him one way or another, not sure how but she was determined not to let this stop her, sure she is going to be the b***h of the century but meh, he was mature for his age, he had to be considering what has happened to him, she will find a way somehow and she did always love a challenge.
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Posted: Sat Nov 05, 2011 10:38 pm
Gersif only nodded, he couldn't push her so he had to go at her pace. He wondered if the loss of light was what drove her back to the table or if it was the poor subject. He glanced at the dark sky, she did say she hated to be out at night. He wondered about those celestials who were to watch out over them on the return trip, his eyes going to the human who was not the dragon, how would he signal the other when the two of them left? He reached the table and took his seat finishing the meats he had taken, feeling it between his teeth pressing on him gums was satisfying, cathartic even. He wondered how often Odessa had come here, if she new the way back in the dark, it was his first time here and as lovely as it is, he wouldn't know how to get back so he was banking on her knowing to keep their time in the dark as short as possible for her sake. "Does your family come to this beach often? It's quite a lovely place." Might as well ask, a change of subject could only improve the mood.
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Posted: Sat Nov 05, 2011 10:51 pm
Odessa did go back because of the night, least time they were out here the better, Vincent had just finished lighting the tiki torches and stood back where he was before, watching them incase they wanted him and then looked to Gersif "we did but it seems like a lifetime ago, every christmas we would basically spend the day here, mother packed a lunch whilst father made sure he had the meat..." Odessa stopped as tears sprung to her eyes but she blinked them away "we spent every year here...that was until my brother got sick and then, after that, we stopped coming. I may have moved out of home at a young age but I always made the trip back home to see my brother or he came to see me, it was a daily thing" she said as she cleared her throat "but yeah, anyway, christmas was always my favourite time of year, it was the one time of year father actually is like a normal Kitsu, he is actually fun to be around" she said as she lent over and ate some of the pineapple that was on her plate.
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Posted: Sat Nov 05, 2011 10:57 pm
"ooh" of course he would pick the one topic that only made the mood of the party worse. "I'm sorry" he didn't know what else to say so he was going to keep his mouth shut so he didn't make it any worse. He finished off the vegetables that were on his plate and sat staring at the fruit and desserts that were left trying to decide if he should eat them to avoid talking and risk gut rot for it, or if he should just sit there in awkward silence. He chose to pick at his food, eating it but very slowly.
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Posted: Sun Nov 06, 2011 7:41 am
"It's fine, really" she said as she lent over and nuzzled him "I can see what you are trying to do but really, I can handle talking about it...alright, for the most part I can, sure I may end up crying but it won't cause me to stop talking about it, you should of seen my brother, his friends thought he was gay because he 'was sensitive' and of course 'males shouldn't be sensitive since that is SO unmanly' she said rolling her eyes "he was worse but not that much worse" she said as she thought about his ex girlfriend, wondering what she was up to now, her brothers sensitivity was one of the things she loved most about him. Odessa leaned over and took some more meat from her plate, eating it slowly, thinking a little more before swallowing "besides, it might be good if I talk about it, I haven't ever spoken about him with anyone, not even my parents, so maybe it is time I did" she said, not that this was the right time but still, even in future, it wouldn't be too hard to know about him right? After all, she did want Oliver to know about his uncle even if he wasn't here, he couldn't really keep that a secret when there were a few photos around home which he would probably see sooner or later anyway.
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