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i'm not leaving, kiddo... he whispers giving him a firm hug... i just don't know what to do anymore... and before ye go calling hopian so he can bop me upside the head... think... i'm trying... really i am.... i... i know that some of it is you testing me... to see just how far ye can go... but i've drawn clear lines and you refuse to accept them... those lines are important to me... seriously... i mean that... and yet you refuse to accept them... sometimes i feel as though ye don't want to accept them... as if what means something to me means absolutely nothing to you... and hell that's fine... then keep on swearing just not around me... surely that possiblility has crossed yer mind a time or two... all that is going to happen is that people are going to look at you in a whole different light... i was trying to groom ye for the world, so it accepts ye and respects ye... that's what a parent does, they try to see to it that their children can find a niche where they are respected and hopefully loved...

he shakes his head and sits the cub down on the ground... the problem is... i'm trying to respect ye, kerobian... but i don't get the feeling ye respect me... i blew it didn't i... somewhere along the way... somehow i've led ye to believe that how ye treat others doesn't matter, as long as yer happy with yerself...

tam rolls his eyes... kerobian, haven't i told ye, ye don't want to get me angry... seriously... i mean it... he sighs and looks at a nearby bush, his eyes glow eerily red and the bush erupts in flames so hot it is reduced to ashes in seconds... oddly enough the flames spread to nothing else....

then he shows kero he view of that encounter... of a child coming towards them, seeing the knife and deciding to disarm him first, causing it to heat up to a red hot temperature... ready to protect them if necessary but refusing to go the route of his sibling who sees no reason not to destroy life, no matter it's age or capability iffin it gets in his way... bez would have blinked him out of existence so fast ye would have wondered iffin ye had really seen him standing there... i was going to give the boy a chance to redeem himself... do ye remember my words to him... "ye can live to grow in wisdom... or i can see to it ye don't... ye got yer choice... what will it be.... " i wasn't going to let him hurt ye, kerobian... ever....

haven't i said yer always angry at me... i've seen it, kiddo... i jusst don't know how to defuse it... he sighs and sits on the ground cross legged before him... i was hoping that by teaching ye control... of your mouth and your actions, you'd learn to control that raging beast inside... because, kero, that is the only way you will ever tame it to your bidding... i know... i've been there... when i first learned who and what i was... after i left ame and lyssan's home to roam the world... i went on a rampage... i... i was so angry... so mad for being cast out i just lost it.... fortunately for the world at large i was in a mountainous region at the time with few inhabitants... i'm afraid i made bez look like a sweet innocent child... if ye can imagine that....

tam sighs... there was this hermit on one of the mountains... an old blind man who saw better with his two milky white eyes than i could ever see with my two healthy green ones... he could see to the soul... i swear he could... i stumbled upon his hut... cold, half starved... and friendless... i had driven everyone away... and he took me in... made me chop wood for a bit of stew... stew didn't help though... what i needed i couldn't attain by eating food... but he was kind to me and dying, so i stayed... to this day i don't know why but i did... and one night... as he laid there... coughing his life away unable to rest, he asked me to play him a tune on this set of old pipes he had... i didn't want to... i wanted nothing to do with music, but he kept shoving those damn pipes into me hands... so i played him a dirge... to make him angry... only it made him smile... something about playing that music for him, with him wanting it so badly, i found myself feeding off his happiness... i played for days for him... not many... he didn't last long... but he was happy and i... i was at peace for the first time in a long time... before he died he tapped my chest, right here above the heart and he said i needed to learn the way of the heart or it would cage me again and never set me free... that only i could control the beast within and no other... and that... that is what i've been trying to teach you... that through love yer stronger and that it is ultimately you who will determine what ye do with yer life... not me... not hopian... not even the beast who sleeps within...

tam smiles sadly and holds him close.... peace kero.... i love you,,, i will never leave you...

tam laugh ruefully... scamp... he growls... yer so damned grounded that iffin ye ever leave me side i'm going to have to tickle ye to death... got that...

tam shakes his head... no... ye were worried, weren't ye... that that wimp of an angel might be in over his head, huh?

well, yer not going to be able to protect that wimp iffin ye aren't with him now are ye... asks tam gently giving him a hug....

of course... says tam gently... just be back in time for dinner... ok? i'm playing tonight and i'd like to hae ye accompany me...