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Posted: Wed Oct 19, 2011 11:29 pm
Gersif coughed out a laugh "yeeeaaah" he shakes his head "apparently we can't say two words to each other without fighting" he sighs with a frown "I need advice ... clearly I suck at this." He plopped himself down hoping for some good advice "You wouldn't happen to know a male celestial she might have met today would you? Apparently they're dating." Displeasure flashed across his features. "I'd like to know more about him since he'll be in our lives however indirectly in mine and Oliver's... but I don't like the idea there is someone that could ruin Oliver's 'happy family'. I don't expect her to fall madly in love with me... but I did expect her to play her roll in the family and not run around with other men.... is that selfish? I mean what would happen if Oliver found out gods forbid.. these things... they have a way of being found out... I would just like to know the guy so at least I could tell Oliver something maybe?" he shook his head.. he didn't know .. what would you say about something like that? He stood up to pace the entrance of the cave trying to better think, looking back at Thane again "I've been alone too long I don't know how to interact with women... or at least not with her... every time I try to say something... out of caring mind you... she takes it completely the wrong way and bites my head off... it's not like I'm raising my voice or anything... would it be better if I did? .. I don't see how it could.. but what do I know?" He had started to talk to himself rather than Thane trying to work it all out in his head pacing a rut in the earth
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Posted: Thu Oct 20, 2011 12:04 am
Thane listened to the other and after he was finished he shook his head "sorry, I don't, male celestials are Sayako's department, she has had quite a few wanting to court her back in the day, she isn't anything special to look at, I mean, she is beautiful, a total looker, BUT she isn't THE most beautiful celestial out there" he said, silently thinking to himself how wrong that actually was, to him, she WAS the most beautiful but each to their own "but she has a good heart, a beautiful soul, a kind nature and is beautiful, she is what any normal man wants in a woman. However, these men realised it was no use pursuing her when she learnt her heart laid with another and so they gave her up, unwillingly but they did....anyway, point to to my story is those men she knows off by heart and a few became close friends of hers, the ones who actually weren't just males who wanted her as some trophy mate, the ones who accepted her choice but still wished to be a fixture in her life and had good wholesome intentions became good, if not close, friends of hers.
So if you want to know about male friends of hers I suggest you look to her for answers, I know one or two but that is about it, I usually prefer to stay around her, if anyone comes or goes while I am there then so be it but I don't really take much notice, she, Calliope and Morpheus were really the only ones I hung around with and spent all my time with and even now I don't really care about hanging around anyone else other then her, no offence, it is just how I am, I prefer just keeping to myself and happiest when I am just with Sayako but if she sent anyone to talk to Odessa it would of been someone she approved of and a close friends of hers. As for the other stuff, I understand this can be frustrating but this is Odessa, from what her mother says, she just likes personal space and not have people trying to tell her how to live her life, she prefers her own way of living, she dances to the beat of her own drum and is why she moved out of home when she was an adolescence, her father is strict and every guy she MIGHT of had even the remotest of crushes on he wanted to know about them.
That went with practically everything, if he didn't approve of the guy or friends she hung out with he forbid her see them, he didn't let her make up her own mind, always treated her as if she was some dumb kid and so she moved out and so really, all I can suggest, from what I have heard from her mother, is that if you want to get back into her good books, don't question her way of life and don't enter her personal space if she doesn't want you to, she will cool off just wait and when she does come back don't go on about things, she has heard, she has mentally taken note and that is all you can do, she will react to it in her own time whatever time that is. It is horrible to wait like this but what more can you do? Odessa is just one of those Kitsu's who hate being told over and over again what to do or how their meant to act or who they can or can not see etc, Odessa is very independent and so all these things like asking her who she is seeing etc is entering more into her life then what she is willing to let you but I swear on my life, if she was with a male Celestial he won't be some cruel, evil guy who just wants to ruin everything you and her have done or hurt her personally in some way.
I am sorry if I can't be anymore help but she will come around sooner or later, her mother believes she will and I believe and trust her mother, it is just going to take some time but just not mention anything that may make her angry, talk about Oliver or the weather or something other then a subject you feel may make her upset with you" he said as he sat down and looked at the other, hating that he wasn't much help really but what else could he do or say? Odess was...well...Odessa.
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Posted: Thu Oct 20, 2011 12:32 am
Ok that made sense... he could see how she would have gotten upset by him asking if her father was that harsh. He could handle that, deal with that. It was logical. No help in knowing about the celestial, but helpful in dealing with Odessa and that was what he really needed at the moment. Ok, OK. he sighed, now to figure out his next move... couldn't go find her, it would invade her space so apologizing at the moment was out. Sayako might be a good bet however, find out more about the celestial, he needed facts, facts meant data, data meant quantifiable, quantifiable meant solvable. He couldn't blame Odessa for being independent or for hating to be harped on.. not that he had harped on her, but if she had heard it a thousand times before from others he could see how it would feel that way... course knowing what others have said was impossible so knowing if he was going to say something she had already heard a thousand times was impossible... he was just going to have to word things very very very carefully. "My concern lies with an ill timed get together where Oliver finds out, he wakes up early or can't sleep and goes for a walk.. things we can't predict that lead to unraveling... that put everything we've done everything we've sacrificed at jeopardy. She's already made clear I needn't worry about her. I really do appreciate your advice though. Thank you it has been most insightful though I am unsure how am I suppose to know what will make her angry. I can't not talk the entire time we're together," he frowned.. it would probably piss her off too.. damned if he did and damned if he didn't "but.." he sighed "I will do my best for Oliver's sake." It was probably the wrong motivation but with his walls up it was all he could muster. He turned about to head to Sayako's when he stopped "I don't suppose her mother told you what meats Odessa enjoys? I thought about going hunting but didn't want to bring back something she'd hate me for." He gave a weak smile trying to joke it off but his heart wasn't behind it which gave it more of a sad appearance than a humorous one
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Posted: Thu Oct 20, 2011 10:20 am
"No, you can't not talk to her but as I said, just evade practically everything she doesn't want to hear, so I suggest not going back and talking about how this guy will probably be wrong for her or whatever other subject she doesn't wish to talk about, there are only a few trillion other subjects to talk about so pick one and go with it, that is really the only thing you can do and as for the other thing it isn't 'ill timed' for Odessa, yes there may be a slight worry but how hard is it to tell Oliver she has gone for a walk? Yes it is another lie but meh, we have come into this lying as it is, a small lie on where his mother actually is won't hurt him and besides that you will be there so it isn't like he isn't without a parent. In amongst all of this normalcy is what is needed and as much as you may hate to hear it, you and her are not together so life still does go on, it just has to be a little more careful these days thats all and besides, a date or two doesn't mean the end of the world and you two won't get together" he said hinting at something he and the others were planning but shuts up, he was going a little too far "that is, if you two ever do get over your fighting that is, it isn't hard to see there is some sort of spark between you" he said softly smiling at the other "and Odessa doesn't eat anything that can be caught around here apparently unless it is fish since she knows that may be some poor woodland creature or whatever that she just made friends with the other day.
So ham, pork, chicken and lamb she loves but only because they are not normal animals you would find living around us, they are not animals she usually befriends and sees being killed and used for meals on a daily basis so she can handle that BUT it has to be properly prepared, you couldn't bring a chicken home and have her eat the meat through the feathers and still have the head on it and all so it has to be properly done, so raw chicken is fine BUT it has to be like chicken pieces and no head at all etc, so other then fish, nothing really, if she can't get fish she will be happy with just an assortment of fruit. Though can you hold off on the hunting tonight? I can't say anything else, I have been sworn to secrecy but lets just say you and her will be fine for dinner tonight" he said winking at him "and you are welcome, I will be here any time you care to talk, just remember to pick some subject that won't make her upset, you are a smart guy, I am certain you can think of something other then what is causing you two to fight" he said, hoping Sayako and the others are alright without him, time out is fine and all but they have two hours or so to get ready and Electra was left doing his share, not that she minded but still.
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Posted: Thu Oct 20, 2011 9:24 pm
He gave Thane a look that said 'yeah like that's possible' how was he to avoid every topic that might possibly upset her? First how was he to know, second he wasn't going to not be himself because she would go ballistic no matter how nicely he stated things, that was emotional blackmail and he wasn't going to be dominated. He was all for strong women but he preferred a partnership not a relationship based on fear of the next out burst. He sighed as Thane continued on, it seemed Thane didn't get it either. It wasn't the 'where is mommy' that he was concerned about, it was 'i'm going for a walk without telling anyone -- who is that guy mommy is with'. He tried to smile at Thane's hinting but he was still calculating everything in his head. Why had he agreed to this.. he should have said no, his life sucked enough already he didn't need drama making it worse. "I think that spark is the fuse lighting on a bomb" only half joking.
He had figured that's how it would be with food for her... how she figured a pig or chicken or sheep's life was worth less than a rabbit's was beyond him, especially a sheep child too young yet to have lived life, how were they worth less? It seemed silly to him, but she was sheltered save for one instance in her life, she hasn't had to fight and scrape to get by she could pretend the meat had never been alive never felt pain. "Yeah I can hold off on hunting, I got food earlier it's marinating now, I was just asking for future reference." He ignored the comment about picking topics wisely he just told him that three times now and it wasn't like he CHOSE to get into fight, seriously what kind of kitsu did these guys think he was? Would he have said yes to being a strange child's father with a woman he didn't know if he were the type to want to get into fights? Why put himself through the stress and trouble? "Thank you again, I think I'll just see if I can't find Sayako and ask if she knows this guy and see if she can give me a woman's perspective." A weak apologetic smile for intruding and then leaving so fast, he didn't need to get into a blame game with someone else, maybe he should seek out the company of Valis, she was always good at making you forget your worries, poor girls a bit dense but hell he could really use her company at the moment, even her daughter's company would do, she wasn't quite as innocent in her views of others but she was always kind, calm, and understanding. Not that he could blame Thane or argue with his advice, he was trying and meant well, but why was it he was the only one who was suppose to try and get along?
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Posted: Thu Oct 20, 2011 9:52 pm
"All I am going to say" Thane said as he started towards the entrance to his cave "is that it may look a little bleak now but it won't be always" he said as he sat at the entrance "and good, because you won't need to et tonight..." he said as he stopped himself, too much info was getting to be little too much "and great, good luck talking to Sayako and with that we are done right? Good, have a safe trip seeing Sayako, I need to get going" he said as he gestured for Gersif to leave "my apologies but running late and all so I have to leave" he said as he needed to get a message to Sayako before he found her and ruined their plan.
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Posted: Thu Oct 20, 2011 10:46 pm
Gersif smiled at his reassuring words appreciative of the effort Thane was making, it helped.. a lot. Though he did quirk an eye brow when he mentioned not needing the food, there was plotting going on, he tried to hide a smile, they were scheming and he wasn't sure if he would like it but he trusted them enough to know it was something meant to be helpful and that in itself was good enough and what he needed at the moment. Course he didn't want to ruin all their efforts at a surprise by letting Thane know he knew, or at least suspected. He gave a short nod in acknowledgement of the completion on their exchange "My apologies for the intrusion, I'll not keep you any longer." He smiled again, he was feeling at least in part better and right now that was enough.
He turned and headed towards Sayako's hoping she might have more information. He just really needed to figure this girl out so he knew how he could be himself and not piss her off. He couldn't compromise himself, he had worked long and hard to become who he was, had to fight for everything he had, had to sacrifice and slave to survive and get to where he was, he wasn't about to throw in the towel now and just roll over. He would die before that ever happened. He mused over the thought like in days of old, not planning on acting on it, simply entertaining the thought of what would happen if she came home to find him dead, it would be interesting indeed. He had to admit he was a little amused by it and it made him feel far better. As he neared Sayako's he started to look around just in case she was some where outside the cave, this also allowed him to clear his mind and go into the conversation without expectation or emotion.
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Posted: Fri Oct 21, 2011 8:46 am
Thane had waited till the other had gone before waiting inside for a little bit and mentally called Dante to him.
"You called?" He asked as he walked in moments later "you realise you could of just come got me, I was just over by the lake getting a drink" he said as the blood red kitsu walked in and sat down beside him "now what is it that you wanted?"
"I need to pick something up, go to Sayako and tell her that Gersif is on his way to see her please, she should be past the caves so it was safe but just just go tell her to get back home."
Dante nodded "of course, talk to you soon" he said as he left to go quickly to see Sayako "though" he said as he turned around and stopped him "one question, why didn't you tell him about Orion? You know him pretty well considering he is your brother."
"No wonder you were close by, you had been listening in!" He said glaring at him before sighing.
"I have to, why do you think I am so good in this little network of ours? I am the only one who can pull off listening in as if I was just being natrual, no one ever guesses I am listening in, I am just THAT good" he said grining at the other.
"Alright, fair point and to answer your question, it is because he IS my brother which is why I didn't, first I come in and help monitor Oliver, a Kitsu who, with Sayako, will make or break his dreams of becoming a father and now my own brother is moving in on the girl he likes? Yeeeah, I think I will leave that out, it is better that I do that and let Sayako explain then let him see my family as a bad lot, besides that, Sayako explains things better then I do."
"And if she mentions Orion is your brother?"
"She won't, Sayako will only mention it IF she has to and I can't really see this as being a situation where she has to" he said, silently hoping he was right "now go, you are losing time!"
"Of course, later!" He said as he flew out of the cave and off to see Sayako.
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Posted: Fri Oct 21, 2011 8:35 pm
Gersif made his way to Sayako's cave and paused at the entrance not wanting to intrude he called out instead "Anyone home?" He didn't hear an answer so he went in a short way to call again "Hello?" still nothing, she must be out shoot. He'd try one last time just in case, he moved further in and called again "Anybody home?" apparently not. He sighed and went back to the entrance perhaps she would be back soon, it's not like anyone was waiting for him anywhere he could wait for her return. He settled himself down in a soft dirt patch just outside her cave and waited. It was wait for her or go her Odessa's parents for insight and seeing as Odessa was going to be there .. well he didn't want to be accused of stalking her so he was left with Sayako
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Posted: Fri Oct 21, 2011 9:05 pm
Sayako came running up ten minutes later and took a deep breath to calm herself, thanks to Dante she would have been back here in time had Dante not decided to tell her what Thane said whilst trying to eat the food, why did Thane trust him when he knew food was around? Had it not been for Lenore making extra the dinner would of been ruined "hi" she said as she had composed herself "what are you doing here? I thought you would be with Odessa" she said as she sat down beside him.
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Posted: Fri Oct 21, 2011 9:32 pm
He gave a weak smile "I was waiting for you. I was wondering if you might know of a celestial that Odessa might have met today." He left the dating part out this time everyone seemed to think he and Odessa were enjoying time together and he didn't want Sayako to lie about this kitsu to save him from whatever she thought might happen if he knew. "She's being secretive and I always like mysteries" he smiled hoping she bought it. He wasn't sure what he was going to do with the information when he got it Thane had already assured him that if it was someone they knew he would be a stand up fellow and that was really all Gersif could ask for for Odessa's sake, but he would prefer to be thorough to be safe rather than sorry.
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Posted: Fri Oct 21, 2011 9:43 pm
Sayako nodded "I do, I had asked him to keep an eye on you and Odessa but apparently that was easier said then done in his case" she said with a sigh, having heard all the details after he had come back, could he not just try and date every girl he sees? He was SO not like his brother "his name is Orion, he was one wishing to court me, stuff happened, he learnt my heart lied with someone else so he gave up but he had good intentions as to why he wished to date me and so, whilst he accepted my heart laid else where he still wished to be a fixture in my life and he and I have been good friends ever since. He is a good hearted guy, sensitive. polite, caring, kind, a gentleman, romantic, trustworthy, he has his flaws but he would be a good mate one day for some lucky lady, he truly is a sweetheart" she said, thinking about him, if it wasn't for the fact her heart belonged to Thane he would of been the one she would have picked out of all the other guys, he was such fun to be around.
"I apologise but I just wanted to know you two were having fun that was all, I guess it was wrong of me but I also was having Olivers best interests at heart, if you two can't get along at least then it means I may not be able to trust Oliver to be with you" she said, knowing she would have to explain to Oliver why but meh, important thing was he and she got along together so she had to keep an eye on them at all times.
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Posted: Fri Oct 21, 2011 10:45 pm
Gersif frowned, what was with the plotting he had seen behind Thane's words if Sayako was already getting another 'daddy' in line for Oliver. Perhaps Thane had been mistaken, perhaps the 'no need for dinner' was meant for Odessa and this Orion? Seemed odd but plausible he supposed. He nodded politely to Sayako while she spoke, still trying to figure it all out. Didn't quite make sense if they thought he and Odessa were out enjoying each other's company why she would send another male as a potential father to Oliver. But if he was everything Sayako said he was then perhaps Odessa and Oliver were better off, he wasn't sure he could compete with that. Being a good provider and a good listener, being someone who would protect them and love them he could do... but all that other stuff? He didn't know how, he had never had to before and clearly that was what Odessa wanted and needed. "Well then I suppose I should congratulate Odessa on her new boyfriend." The words left a bitter taste in his mouth but with his emotions shut away not even Sayako's distrust of him hurt.. ok maybe just a little. He had thought that in the days since they met he had proven himself to be a good father and role model but it seemed he was mistaken. He couldn't hold it against her, she was Oliver's true guardian, but he had thought she trusted and liked him. It was beginning to seem as though he was being edged out of the family. His own folly really, agreeing to this in the first place, he set himself up for the disappointment.
"It's nice to know you had a substitute ready for my inevitable failure thought, doesn't hurt to have a back up right?" It was harsh and perhaps unfair she had just apologized for sending him over, but she had in the same breath told him she didn't think she could trust Oliver with him and if she couldn't trust Oliver with him then what was the point of him being here? He got up trying to figure out what to do. It felt like he wasn't wanted there by any but Oliver and that was because of a lie... he had promised though and he had prided himself in always keeping his word... but could he really live some place he wasn't wanted? Wasn't that why he had never stopped moving? He would have to tell Oliver he was leaving and that would break the boy's heart, he had only just gotten his father back. He sighed. Another business trip perhaps? He frowned. He didn't like abandoning Oliver, but he didn't feel like he was being given much choice in the matter either. He would at least apologize to Odessa and say goodbye before explaining to Oliver why he had to leave. "I should talk to Odessa, hopefully she'll be home and over our little disagreement. Thanks for the talk though, least I know they'll be in capable hands even if no one seems to think me capable." He got up and stretched his back casually as though they had just been talking about the weather "I wish I could get it to work out, I keep trying but I guess I just make it worse ...I know it wasn't ever really about me.. just would have been nice to.." he paused and shook his head "I dunno.. " He shrugged. He was going to talk to Odessa and see how things went, try to give it one last go, he really did want this to work out even with the odds set against him. Normally he would have left by now.. long time ago in fact, but normally he wouldn't have made a promise, normally he wouldn't have someone counting on him so he would try. He might say he would try till it hurt... but it already hurt and he was still going back for more. "Thanks again" he gave a sad smile and headed back to Odessa's cave.
His walls were crumbling again.. how long had that been going on? He closed his eyes on his walk to try and rebuild them he would need every ounce of their strength and support for this. He swallowed a lump in his throat.
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Posted: Fri Oct 21, 2011 11:17 pm
Sayako just looked at the male in disbelief, did he honestly think this was all her doing? She was really THAT underhanded to send a guy to to 'steal' Odessa away from him? A small part of her liked that idea, making her seem like some cunning b***h did seem like fun but really, she was far from it and he was way off the mark "getting your wires crossed much?" She called after him "has anyone ever told you not to jump to conclusions? It isn't good to assume things, I NEVER said anything about him being her new boyfriend, I NEVER said he was going to be Oliver's new father and I NEVER said that Orion was a substitute. Yes Orion now has a date with Odessa but that was his and her own doing, I don't own him, I just told him to keep an eye out for you two since you two NEED to get along for Olivers sake, I NEVER told him he should go jump into bed with her the first moment he gets! Granted he IS too much of a gentleman to do that but still, my point is, you are getting all worked up over whatever fantasy situation you have going on in your head and making me out to be some underhanded b***h and quite frankly I not only find offence in that but if that is really how low you think of me maybe I should rule you out altogether of being a candidate for Olivers father and I will just make something up to tell Oliver as to why you and Odessa are no longer together."
Sayako got up and walked past Gersif slowly, she couldn't be bothered talking to him anymore since apparently whatever she said he wouldn't listen to her, after all, she was just some cunning b***h and making up his own conclusions was SO much better "maybe Odessa was right to accept this date with Orion, it seems you have this all sorted out so why don't I leave you with your doubts and worries and self satisfaction to know that you were 'right'? Because it is obvious I am not needed anymore so I will just let you go and wallow in doubt and misery while I go talk to Thane" she said rather irritably as she walked faster, maybe tonight was going to be the worst thing that they could do.
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Posted: Sun Oct 23, 2011 4:16 pm
Gersif winced she was right he had known it before he spoke but he didn't know what to do if there was someone better out there he should give them all the chance at a better life no matter how much it hurt him... he just didn't want to anymore, he didn't want to be the nice guy who did the best for everyone else at his own detriment. He wanted to be happy for once in his life, and well he wasn't getting much of a chance at the moment... but he really wanted it all to work out. He frowned and nodded "You're right I'm sorry... I lashed out at you and I was wrong too.. I just don't know what to do the deck seems stacked against me and... " He trailed off sitting down examining the dirt, glancing up only once or twice to see if she had heard him. Now he had two girls to apologize to. He should make it up to Sayako some how, she had been very kind and helpful these past days and this is how he thanks her? ... He really is screwed up, this whole situation has gotten him in knots, upside down and inside out. Every time he tried to center himself it just kept slipping going askew one way or another. He couldn't even stay calm and rational with his walls up, they just kept tumbling down. Would he ever be able to build them up strong and steady again? He didn't even know if Sayako had heard his apology but he was going to need to do more than just give pretty words to make it up to her. Even if this didn't work out he would be sure to leave her a nice gift in apology before he left. And what of Odessa? He didn't know what he could do, there seemed to be little he could do or say without upsetting her. His frown deepened. He was too out of practice in the social game to ever come out on top with it.
Well there was only one thing he could do, he hoisted himself up to head back to Odessa's once more, time to face the firing squad.
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