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 Posted: Sun Apr 10, 2011 4:04 pm
After realizing I misunderstood a post that was made, and why I misunderstood it, I figured I'd post a little something here so that the people in the guild will understand if I seem a little... intense ... sometimes.
I've been with boy1 for 7 years, for 4 of those 7, I've been getting close and closer to boy2, but since there's a huge border between me and boy2, we never took that step in to 'relationship'. We've loved each other for a long time though. Very recently, boy2 finally crossed the border and came to see me and meet my family.
It was ... right. Having both of them with me, watching boy2 with my daughters, him laughing at me over silly things, helping me cook, everything was just right. And then he went back to where he lives. If everything goes according to plan, then in less than a year, he'll be here with us permanently, but it's hard to let go.
I'm a fairly emotional person to begin with, so having him gone after it being so right that he was here, it sucks. So when I'm not angry, or crying, I'm numb and doing my best to distract myself.
I hope that the people in the guild can forgive me if I seem off, or I'm coming off too intense. I appologize now for it. smile
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Posted: Tue Apr 26, 2011 4:49 am
You feel strongly and express it. As long as you're not attacking others in the guild I see no problem. heart
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Posted: Tue Apr 26, 2011 9:22 am
Saew You feel strongly and express it. As long as you're not attacking others in the guild I see no problem. heart No, no, I wouldn't do that. smile I just got embarassed for not understanding what I was looking at, I'm usually the one that people who know me go to for relationship advice, and I understand what they're telling me, so it was a blow to misunderstand something that was right in front of me while I read it, and ..yeah. lol Things are a little better now. After looking at immigration laws, he needs to move here by this time next year at the latest, so we're planning for March 2012. I'm not quite as ... explosive as I was a week or two ago, so... progress. smile
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Posted: Wed May 04, 2011 11:11 pm
I'm sorry to hear that you have to separate. Alas, an utopian society stays out of reach yet again.
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2011 6:03 pm
No more drama! At least, not the "omg I need you here with me" kind... >.<
Boy#2 and I are officially together, something that caused a lot of stress for me, being 'friends' because of the distance, but being committed to each other for life just didn't sit well with me on top of missing him so much.
But, now every time I hear him call me is his girlfriend I squeeeee. heart
I'm going to the States to see him in 9 days, I've been waiting to pack for the last two weeks.... >.> I kept getting told no, I'm not allowed to pack yet. Now I just need to pick up my passport and go.
As for boy#1 (numbers mean nothing in the relationship, it's just easier that way) he's been super studying for certification exams, so I haven't had much time with him, but we've been spending more time together now that I'm on my balancing meds and ones that work to help me stay in control. When I was here the last time, I had no control at all. >.<
We picked up Dirty Dancing, one of my all time favourite movies, today for $5 so I'm just waiting for him to get tired of studying for his exam tomorrow to curl up and watch it with him. biggrin
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Posted: Sun Jul 10, 2011 10:03 am
Time is moving far too slowly for my liking. Anyone have a machine that will speed it up for me but leave it be for everyone else?
No?
Damn, didn't think so. sad
Today is .... *checks calendar* Sunday. On Wednesday I go get my passport. Can it be Wednesday yet? blaugh
I love my children dearly, they're so very, very important to me. But right now, I want to drop them off somewhere and leave them there... >.< Not listening to the point of wading in the dangerous creek we have near us after being grounded for it a bunch of times and being explained to exactly why it's dangerous, and then making everyone in the house's lives a living hell because they're stuck inside today because they didn't listen... >.<
Anyone want a pair of gorgeous, active strawberry blonde girls? They come with everything you need! Except patience... >.> blaugh
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Posted: Sun Jul 10, 2011 10:11 am
Sounds like they need something to do with all that energy- maybe some housework?
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Posted: Sun Jul 10, 2011 10:57 am
Esiris Sounds like they need something to do with all that energy- maybe some housework? omg if I could get ANY one in this house to do housework... Even me... sweatdrop I can clean things very well, my mom made sure I at least knew that, but I hurt my back a few years ago so I can't do a lot of things that I used to be able to. The majority of the cleaning gets left for my ex to do, and he can't clean to save his life. Not that he won't, which, he won't, but he actually can't. So the girls follow his example and when I step in and try and make them clean their room, it's an entire day of fighting and screaming and yelling and finally threatening to take everything if it isn't cleaned by x time. >.< I don't have the ability to handle the stress from them right now. I took one of my pills though, so hopefully that helps and I can deal with them easier.
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Posted: Mon Jul 25, 2011 10:23 pm
I've been here in Oregon with boy#2 for the past week and a few days. From what I can remember of it, it's been wonderful so far. sweatdrop heart
I have serious memory issues, and my anti-anxiety medication makes me forget. Like, I take it before I sleep so I CAN sleep, and when I wake up I can't remember anything from the time they kicked in the night before. >.>
I got to meet his mother and she approves of me (Yay!) and likes me. Considering he's moving out of the country to be with me in the next year or less, that's a good thing. She knows he's moving and seems to be ok with it. smile
I got lost, that was fun... I thought I'd go for a walk, and got lost on the same block twice... >.< Finally found my way back to his work a half an hour before his shift ended so I waited there for him. Only to find out that I was less than half an hour away from his place and perfectly safe the whole time. >.> I haven't gone out alone since. lol
Provided I can work something out with the tattoo artist, I'll be getting a tattoo before I leave on Sunday, not literally, it'll be on Saturday morning. It's just a matter of working things out with the tattooist so that it doesn't go over my budget. I'll remember every second of that.
I miss my kids like crazy, I miss boy#1, I miss my CATS, omg do I miss my cats. lol Hell, I even miss the girl's father, my roommate, and I generally can't stand the man unless we're living separatly. He pisses me off too easy.
I can't think of anything else to update. Things are wonderful with a taint of having to leave soon, and I can't wait until all 3 of us can be together so I can work on bringing my kids home to me where they belong. Need to be more stable for that though. >.< Damn issues and subscriptions... sweatdrop stressed
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Posted: Thu Aug 04, 2011 10:55 am
I'm finally home. I'm glad to be home, I missed my babies and my other partner and my cats. biggrin I left a part of me back in Oregon though. sad Two weeks was long enough that we both were at home and things were right and comfortable and wonderful, we settled in to a daily routine so very quickly. But it was short enough that I feel ripped away at having to leave. If the help that I've asked for comes through, he'll be home with me in less than a year. Our anniversary is coming up in about 6 months and he'll be here for that come hell or high water. Long distance relationships suck. At least, the long distance part does. The relationship part is wonderful. heart On the upside, I got a nice, shiney new tattoo. <3 Now I have his ring to remind me he loves me, his monkey (a plushie) to cry on and his dragon to protect me from my doubts. 
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Posted: Fri Aug 05, 2011 10:57 am
Shayne Indra I'm finally home. I'm glad to be home, I missed my babies and my other partner and my cats. biggrin I left a part of me back in Oregon though. sad Two weeks was long enough that we both were at home and things were right and comfortable and wonderful, we settled in to a daily routine so very quickly. But it was short enough that I feel ripped away at having to leave. If the help that I've asked for comes through, he'll be home with me in less than a year. Our anniversary is coming up in about 6 months and he'll be here for that come hell or high water. Long distance relationships suck. At least, the long distance part does. The relationship part is wonderful. heart On the upside, I got a nice, shiney new tattoo. <3 Now I have his ring to remind me he loves me, his monkey (a plushie) to cry on and his dragon to protect me from my doubts. Awww. The dragon link didn't work.
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Posted: Fri Aug 05, 2011 10:59 am
Esiris Shayne Indra I'm finally home. I'm glad to be home, I missed my babies and my other partner and my cats. biggrin I left a part of me back in Oregon though. sad Two weeks was long enough that we both were at home and things were right and comfortable and wonderful, we settled in to a daily routine so very quickly. But it was short enough that I feel ripped away at having to leave. If the help that I've asked for comes through, he'll be home with me in less than a year. Our anniversary is coming up in about 6 months and he'll be here for that come hell or high water. Long distance relationships suck. At least, the long distance part does. The relationship part is wonderful. heart On the upside, I got a nice, shiney new tattoo. <3 Now I have his ring to remind me he loves me, his monkey (a plushie) to cry on and his dragon to protect me from my doubts. Awww. The dragon link didn't work. I posted it in the picture thread in the main forum. wink I had to play with the sizing though, so the one here got deleted. I didn't even think about it until you said something. I'll fix it. biggrin
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Posted: Sun Aug 28, 2011 3:42 pm
I don't remember if I fixed the dragon link or not. >.> My whole photobucket albums are rearranged. >.>
*peeks in from the safety of her couch*
Got a hair cut... Some new glasses... Spent some time with my girls... Yeah.
*poofs*
Edit: Fixed the dragon.
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Posted: Sun Aug 28, 2011 11:24 pm
Shayne Indra I don't remember if I fixed the dragon link or not. >.> My whole photobucket albums are rearranged. >.> *peeks in from the safety of her couch* Got a hair cut... Some new glasses... Spent some time with my girls... Yeah. *poofs* Edit: Fixed the dragon. *pokes* I read your posts in that other guild, I know you're more active than that razz I've also been trying to help you with your Backyard Monsters setup. You got pics for us over here of your new hair and glasses?
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Posted: Mon Aug 29, 2011 4:09 am
Saew Shayne Indra I don't remember if I fixed the dragon link or not. >.> My whole photobucket albums are rearranged. >.> *peeks in from the safety of her couch* Got a hair cut... Some new glasses... Spent some time with my girls... Yeah. *poofs* Edit: Fixed the dragon. *pokes* I read your posts in that other guild, I know you're more active than that razz I've also been trying to help you with your Backyard Monsters setup. You got pics for us over here of your new hair and glasses? Well, that's pretty much the gist of it... Oh! I forgot about my jewelry making. I wasn't able to do as much as I wanted with the chain mail bracelet cause I kept getting interferance... I need a workspace that's just mine so I can lock myself in there and work. >.> Pictures? Um.... There's this one of the glasses... And this one of me and my daughter after our hair cuts.  When her hair is wet and all bunchy curly, she reminds me of some of the pictures of people from the 20's.
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