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[Tobi Kaito]

 

[Tobi Kaito]

I'm going to be extremely happy when the sadly related to them family group GTFOs from here. xp

I love them vaguely as they are are family and with my family that's the best you can get outside of the very very few with me, but after two damn months I go from that to going into the moods of I really just want to end them all. emotion_donotwant  

[Tobi Kaito]

Queen Spazzy

((I got a lot to vent out as annoyed now & i may come out sounding like an a*****e as to me I feel that way when I'm annoyed all the time. emotion_skull ))

Worse of all it's getting to point were the one I want to end most is the man my older then me niece Regina somehow loves & I don't understand how she can somedays with how Mike gets.

Reasons: 1.) paranoid we're taking his food, 2.) always angry about something it's making mw stay angry as I am put in the general mood around me, 3.) Calls everyone inside the house here assholes, 4.) accuses Travis and Nathan about why his life seems to be going downhill, 5.) proved more than once he'll hit a child when the child angers him, 6.) wants the kids to run around with their bruises he caused as a sign to "show he's parenting them to behave better", 7.) Although he says it's not the case I still 100% believe he's lying out his arse about it & he did call me a fat pig as again he's blaming all of us inside the household here for eating up their his food (I say it like that as you'll hear why later.), 8.) He gets mad with the kids and Regina for eating food they all got for themselves down here, 9.) gets pissed off at Regina for calling him and Vince out for having their own breakfast without anyone else of the RV group having any, 10.) claiming all of the forks as their forks so if you want/need a fork may as well go fork yourself as he says the forks are all of theirs and not ours, hell most our spoons too are theirs now too so I gave up trying to actually actively try sorting them out correctly & so has Travis; So now we both are sorting it like we see silverware put in in with their s**t, we see our cups, put it away unless it's our pink cup they stole that one too!!!


But I can also see how Regina can love him as Mike isn't her last husband Austin; the bio dad of all of those kids whom got to know half of those kids a little too well if you know what I'm saying, so now Austin is on a secret version of that list so all the law enforcement knows but the world doesn't really know so Austin himself doesn't know he's registered as a C.P. & apart from that half the kids were unplanned/unwanted by Regina but since Austin was a real P.O.S. himself we never knew about til later as Regina hid it all until later after we now know that Austin drugged her and did the do so the other half were all born by literal roofied rape.
{All the same we love the kids as family even if half of them were that case, they are good kids even if they got their many problems that makes you also want to strangle them some days.}

Moving onto the other case of I'm done with people we got VInce he's a short list but a list.

Reasons I'm done with Vince: 1.) Mike's butt monkey a.k.a. He is always on Mike's side 24/7 even if Mike is in the wrong, 2.) sends the younger kids inside the house here all alone (we got no fence and we got stray dogs that roam this area we do not need a kid bit by one of those stray dogs as the little one saw a doggy and wanted to pet the doggy not knowing the doggy was a stray doggy and thus dangerous.), 3.) Makes food for himself and Mike only, 4.) Barely cleans up after his chihuahua, 5.) A yes man to Mike whom will completely ignores Regina's kind asking of him to have manners, 6.) Will tell the younger kids to move the same way he tells the large pittie to move (Last I checked the kids were not dogs minus those times they pretended to be dogs.) 7.) 100% personal reason I dislike him a lot... sweatdrop He's going to be rich soon as June hits getting 1.5 million dollars and owning about 6 to 8 fancy and fast cars, the reason I dislike this is I been around too many a.hole rich kids in past that got all "we're better than you." so I naturally got a hate the rich people for that reason. (and as an adult those same rich kids of my past didn't become saints, so I still hate them.)

Going onto annoyed with times for things I could stand if they happened less of the times they do happen.

1.) Laundry day for the RV group seeming to be every single day. (I got clothes to wash myself badly, hurry your clothes up!!!)
2.) Dishwashing day for the RV group. (Too many people too many dishes.)
3.) Hearing Mike is angry. (We f***ing know he's always angry a part of me is about to call him either Grumpy based off snow white and the 7 dwarves, or Vegeta cause Vegeta always seems upset in the DBU. And his anger is making me always be angry too ready to fight if needed to, which I hate feeling like that so I'm even more angry than normal as I can't be this angry levels for if I do fight back it'll cause more BS issues that either make me A.) flee America foe good as I'm done with life near my family members. Or B.) move in with my TLerDad in their EL here maybe or maybe not telling my most trusted ELer Family member Travis about the move.
4.) Kids watching whatever I am on. {I can't 100% enjoy my games/anime/shows/movies because there are young kids whom are not suppose to be watching anything cause Mike has them all grounded all the time, so when they are watching them it makes Mike get pissy with all of us & so it goes I grow pissy as I'm about to scream "If it's such a big no make Vince get off his lazy a** and actively watch the kids, or do so yourself or are you both happy being RV campers only!?!"}
5.) "what time is it?" (I'd be okay with them asking this question if this question wasn't sometimes asked daily about every 30 seconds... to point I'm about to rip off my own head and put a clock in it's place. Win for both sides I'm gone so no longer able to be annoyed and they got the time all they need ask!! *speaking like a madmen as going insane.*)
6.) "When are you going to-" [again the kids aren't suppose to watch jack cause they're grounded s them asking things like "when are you going to play that zombie game again?" or even "when are you going to watch dragon ball again?" and etc. is getting to the point of me wanting to answer "Either when you all stop watching it as Mike doesn't want you watching anything, or when Mike stops getting angry at us as you all stop to watch things, or when Regina your mother grows a brain and sees Mike is also awful and dumps him so we got no worries you can't ever watch things!"]
7.) Not much space for my own food. (we can get food for my cupboard since they got all of the freezer now atm and most of the fridge itself too, but cause of them now invading my cupboard too just to hold their food it's a case of "oh well guess I'll mostly starve minus the days Regina shares a meal to me." and you can guess that those days are days Mike isn't around here to get mad with her sharing meals. Use to be I get breakfast & dinner shared with them since they took all the space in our food storage, but now it's just I'll get dinner if I'm lucky, Mike is gone, or rare as the moon becomes a blood moon Mike decides to be nice and let them share with me...)
8.) Pizza deliveries. (This makes me mad as they use to share or even got all of us inside a pizza too, but now they are just getting only for themselves which is honestly a d**k-ish move, specially when if I had the money to waste on pizza like that myself I'd give the kids and them all pizza too cause A.) They'd get pissy I got one for all of us inside and not any for them any ways. {I wish this was a joke but it's true, funny how they don't see how it's upsetting they are that way to us when they go and do.}, B.) I'm not going to leave the family members I like aka Regina and all of those kids with out pizza. {******** Mike and Vince atm they can order their own. *take an easy to answer wild guess whom is ordering them all pizza a lot of the time*


((Why I feel like an arse; 1.) I mention Austin & we all never mention him for obvious. 2.) I'm getting all "Divorce Mike!!!" mood and attitude cause he's making me upset anymore but ultimately it's Regina's call. 3.) If Mike continues with the blaming, anger outburst, calling all inside this house rude names, & having many accusations; Then 110% I'll f***ing make them all true just to see if he will gtfo faster cause I am that done!))


This is my dark side of being over anxious and stressed, and honestly it's to the point of they are only a few more negative things away from having me openly telling them/making them GTFO after how long it has been they been here.
((Idk if it's really been 2 months but it feels like it with all the stress & anxiety I feel.))

Number of times I felt like never returning home when out (walking or even cause we went to see my brother Jim in the hospital since his accident.): 45
Number of times Travis felt like never returning home: 20
Number of times Nathan "worked overtime" aka stayed away from home cause of them: Every day since April Fools now...
Number of times I had to take an anger go away walk: 25
Number of how many people heard me complain about my family staying in their RV that's sitting in our backyard: Probably 2,000+ as I get miles away from here and scream about their actions that upset me so much for the day on a day of taking an anger go away walk. ((One day I nearly took an anger go away all the way to my TLer parent's EL home in Logan Utah, but then I transformed full form and flew back to my EL home here thanks to late night hours. it was midnight.))  

[Tobi Kaito]

Queen Spazzy

Tobi Kaito

I understand that sentiment. I can barely tolerate most of my fam a few nights a year at holiday gatherings, living with most of them would be... not ideal, to put it lightly.

I got good news today, though!! My medication is working as it should, I don't have to switch!

Nice to get good news at the hospital for once.

(now for the quote were I'm not venting out a lot.)

It's good to know you don't have to switch medication.  

[Tobi Kaito]

Queen Spazzy

{Honestly a little bit of me is starting to get all whom cares let them see their great uncle's "darker side" *quote cause normally specially when really stressed/anxious/annoyed I'll curse a ******** ton with no shits given & even told some of my family members whom got upset I am swearing this fun little line about us being a Christian family; "Do I look like I give a ********!? If it really angers God so much that any of us pieces of s**t swear any little amount than you are all going down to Hell with me! Cause if he does try to send me down for swearing I'll out all of you even if you're in Heaven already cause I remember my damn childhood!!!" but moving on...* as THEY got to learn to give space, just as much as they all want that dang annoying the hell out of me dog Valkyrie to do. *honestly Valkyrie is getting horrible on giving personal space that even I an extreme dog lover am about to make her have a damn pug face if you get my meaning * it 1,000% scares me I'm that annoyed with the young pit, but same time the introverted side of me is all "it's understandable we love our bubble and too many ******** are not giving us our damn bubble that it's a miracle none of them have already been harmed!!!" And introverted side is correct it is a miracle.)

ngl most of my life has been me praying at times to find out that I am adopted and not actual blood kin, since I never saw any in the hospital with mom new born baby pictures. (And it'd be a relief and a damn depressing moment, as I'd be glad to not be related to some family members out there sure, but the few I do like and love as family I'd be crushed not being blood kin to.)

The worse horrible thing to know is that Regina knows Mike isn't the grandest herself & she's been told literally by all of us in this kind of (who the ******** am I kidding?) 100% poor (in the terms of we are not well connected to one another much.) family she's really only taking him because; A.) He is not Austin. B.) Obviously as you stated as well her trauma says he isn't Austin and she can't do any better, so she may as well accept her fate she found and got him and will not find anyone better for herself. & C.) Cause all of our family members each have their own trauma and issues from childhood and even adulthood, she's using her experiences from that all to ruin her life even more as she's just letting the down trodden side of her run the parade of hers instead of actually actively fighting it like the others of us do daily.
(I've lost count of how many days I personally woken up feeling like killing myself due to the trauma and issues I have from back in my own childhood that my evil b***h of a stepmother and her own blood kin gave me. It's not really every single waking day as I tell others in my life, but it feels like it sometimes.)  

[Tobi Kaito]

My favorite Khajiit furstock are the Alfiq. (probably because July 21st falls on the two moons in lore I'd be born one if I was a khajiit.)