motivation

[miss_cool_danielle]

So I just returned home from a weekend vacation to Vegas. Along the way my boyfriend has been talking about working out. My problem is, is that I have zero motivation. He lives in a different town, he tries his best to motivate me from afar but all it really does it make me feel depressed. I go into complete shut down mode, cry and make up excuses why I can't do it. About a year ago I lost about 15lbs for someone that I liked (not the same person), he never once complimented me on it or gave me any kind of motivation about 4 months later we broke up and gained it all back.

I know that losing weight should be for myself but every time I find myself back in my own town all I feel is depressed, and I feel depressed because I know I have no one here. My self motivation is near nowhere existant and I fear it's often this town I live in. Just negative energy all around me that sucks me into it.and all I do is just cry and argue with my family. Everything bugs me, and I want to stop crying and feeling sorry for myself. My boyfriend is amazing but I'm sad that his motivation doesn't get my butt going. I know that I'm not happy with my weight because the numbers just make me mad. I guess I'm just tired...I don't know if anyone will bother to read this and reply. but If you do that would be great.  

[LorienLlewellyn]

Don't worry about the numbers on the scale or about what size your clothes are. Block out the negativity around you. Other people's negativity doesn't have anything to do with you, so ignore it. Focus on your health. Focus on your life. Focus on living longer. Focus on being able to spend more time with him (and/or your future kids) when you live longer. Focus on eating right and staying active. Don't feel like you have to go full blown healthy overnight. Take baby steps. Don't beat yourself up if you backslide or have unhealthy days.  

[miss_cool_danielle]

Thank you! It's much appreciated advice
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