• where is love when i need it?
    People around me are consumed by it
    only to left me out
    alone and desperate

    the love that i needed
    had once appear
    in my life
    but before i knew it
    it disappeared

    now longing and yearning
    I found it
    in a form that I did not want
    it's dangerous and forbidden

    now take it away!!

    yes,
    I am selfish
    people might not call it love
    but i am agonizing everyday
    but i am too weak
    to abandon it, to forget it

    it's wrong
    and i know it
    i don't want to stuck in one place
    and always has to watch that person
    finding his happiness in someone else
    and thinking he will look at me, one time
    it's delusional

    even if he did
    we still can't be together
    watching both of us die from this love

    from the moment i know that
    love will not bloom by my side
    since i am too weak to acknowledge it
    too naive to know it
    and will always be searching for it