• The world around me seems to have been dulled,
    or maybe it is just me. The sound is slightly muffled,
    clamped shut, never to be heard clearly. The sights are fading,
    no longer as vibrant. My words are all jumbled, no longer making
    sense.

    I have long lost sight of my true being, she walked out my life
    the moment she was given the chance. No longer did she help
    make decisions, no longer did she guide me through the darkness.
    It has been long since I've heard her words of reassurance, heard her
    call out to me in a tone of reasoning.

    She made her stand, she tried helping. But I, stubborn and unwilling,
    let her stand alone. I left her in a world so harsh, refused her guidance
    even when I was in a great need of it. Instead of nurturing her, and giving
    her all she deserved, I neglected one of her most simplest needs: attention.
    Soon I gave up on her reasoning, letting her walk away from me.

    Since her departure I have all but been a mess. So ready to throw myself
    in every which way the wind blew me. I lost myself, lost my true being.
    The road I took led me astray, far from where I am meant to go.
    If given the chance, i would listen to what she had to share,
    everything I needed to know.

    Here I stand, world still dulled, wondering, when will I improve my soul.
    Who I was is long gone now, making way for me to improve.
    My past has been accepted, as well as the monster I had been.
    My true being never truly left, only showing me what I had to see.
    Now that I am given the chance, I can finally fix "me".