• I can"t take it
    I write and write
    more then ever should be said
    I want to claw out my heart
    get rid of my sanity
    I want what wishes to avoid
    and hold dear what gave me the choice
    no amount of thought could give a solution
    it's no longer my decision
    appropriate punishment that I won't agree
    I want to understand
    Why this way?
    How much time could it take?
    Should I just let it go?
    I need to know
    If I mess up it would do more to me
    because it would do worse
    to someone more important
    vague the idea
    and so should the answer be
    I don't know what I want
    And that alone will kill me...