• whats wrong with me?
    my heart's raging,
    yelling at me as its pumps harder and faster still.
    "you only think you love him and you know he doesn't love you.
    he just loves what he can do to you"

    i cry at my hearts words.
    my salty tears ever flowing.
    Its right, he loves me for the only fact,
    that im a woman, probibly the only one that would give him the time of day.

    why cant i say "no" when it matters?
    make him eat his mattress?
    or atleast say tata for now?
    maybe apart of me really does love him.
    but another part is just not ready for that loves promise.

    one day my hearts race will end
    my mind be put at ease.
    forever i shall rest.
    for now i'll just grin and bare it.
    one day i will find happiness.