• 11:17pm
    Said leave
    Can't breathe
    Sky falling
    Life failing

    Air blows
    Wind chimes
    Hear the sound
    Feel the beat

    Eyes closed
    Mind open
    Don't fall
    Listen to me

    Remember love
    Remember life
    Don't sleep
    Stay awake

    Eyes open
    Smile on
    Shoes tied
    Ready to go

    Here there
    Up down
    On a ride
    To nowhereland

    11:42pm
    Future scary
    Don't hate me
    Hide my face
    Don't see me

    Looks here
    Looks there
    I hide away
    Save me

    Everywhere
    People stare
    Careless or curious?
    Judging or impartial?


    12:20am
    Love me
    Like I love you
    Can I do it?
    Too hard

    Try again
    And once more
    Impossible
    Give up

    Work out
    Scale broken?
    I hope
    Run away

    Free free?
    Celery
    Nothing changed
    Life stays

    Think think
    Hair done
    Stand proud
    Chin-up

    Confidence
    Smile
    Stand
    Believe
    Just try it
    Please

    Self-less out of
    Love for them?
    Or hate for me?
    Or both?

    1:06 am
    Voices loud
    Obscene words
    Cover ears
    Make-do

    Close windows
    Shades shut
    Shouting quieter
    Pillow on head

    They leave
    Silent Night
    No never mind
    Whoops and shouts
    Something won?


    1:14am
    Slightly delusional
    Headless animals?
    Nope found it
    Kitty cat

    Cat purrs
    Fan whirrs
    Car honks
    Too loud

    2:28am
    Fireflies
    In my head
    Keeping me
    Wide awake

    Memories swim:
    New sneakers
    New school
    Will have a gym

    Watching watching
    Girls flirting
    Guys kicking
    People everywhere

    Bell rings
    Too loud
    Scurry away
    Pencil in hand

    My clothes baggy
    Hand-me-downs
    Theirs tight
    New from malls

    2:51
    Thoughts swim
    Irrational fears
    Will they leave me?
    Alone forever?

    Turn on mute
    Only defense
    To stay away
    From their claw

    Things dark
    Eyes close
    Fall away
    Down to sleep...