• I'm normally calm, I'm normally sweet
    when you open your mouth, i want to scream
    you cared for me when i was young
    we enjoyed so much, had a lot of fun
    until the day i came back home
    i realized then i had been all alone
    crowded with people i partied all night
    drank, had good times, got into fights
    but when i lay down finally in my warm bed
    with satisfied thirst and a throbbing head
    i wished i paid attention to your words even more
    so i didn't end up, body and mind really sore
    I'd wake up with tons of bills in my hand
    all totaling to over more than a grand
    the guy in my bed, i didn't know his name
    but it wasn't a surprise, they were all the same
    at work i thought i was going insane
    i couldn't tell anyone where, out of shame
    day by day i got sicker of the life i led
    my money depleted, i was barely fed
    i finally decided i had enough
    in my room i packed up all my stuff
    then i dared to stand at your door looking in from outside
    i spilled everything, i had nothing to hide
    you listened to everything i had to say
    when i was done i thought that you would turn me away
    but you opened your arms and with a huge smile
    you told me that it had been a long while
    you missed me and somehow knew all this all the time
    you prayed every night for me to be fine
    now i stand before you, you thank the heavens
    that I'm still here when I'm twenty seven
    that i made it home all in one piece
    even with my past all tattered, filthy and greased
    now a year later, my uniform cleaned and pressed
    in the mirror i can't believe how different I'm dressed
    The smile on my face isn't fake, it's real
    My new job isn't great, but it's honest and pays my bills
    My new flat smells of flowers, no longer of alcohol or smoke
    At your door, I stand before you, my throat wants to choke
    Again with opens arms, you welcome me in
    I have stories to tell you, this time with a grin
    I have you to thank mom
    for without you, i wouldn't be standing here, I'd be gone