• im listening to Breath by super chick i cant stop listening to it. it reminds me of my grandpa, i with he didnt have to leave so early...i wish he didnt have to leave me here on earth. i just wish i had one more day with him. i was also listening to courage by super chick. i dont know if i have told ou yet put what i posted yesterday in thoughts 25 i said i haddent eaten, i still havent eaten, i didnt eat the day before and the day before that. today i just ate a few green beans and a thumb sized bite of chicken then when i was taking a shower afterwards i started feeling sick. so i just threw it up. if you havent figured it out by now im anorexic/buliemic. partly because i feel so ugly and discusting and partly because im slowy trying to kill myself. if anybody would look past my cheery little smile they would see how broken i am. i cant figure out how people cant see. if they would just listen.... they would know im dieing.