• i wonder what im doing wrong, i dont see anything wrong with me. at school nobody really talks to me. i just cant figure it out, why? do i dress weird? do i talk too loud? or do they just not see me? oh i wish there was somebody one day that would just come and sit with me at lunch, and genuinely care. and listen to what i have to say, and just listen. nobody seems to care about what i have to say, and no matter how many people im with i still feel alone. i wish somebody would ask me out to the ninth grade dance, and have it not be a joke like the other two times i have been asked out in my entire life. some people have no idea how horible it feels to see other girls happy and content, with perfict hair, cute cloths, and a boy that loves them. but then yet they still dont seem happy...i wish i had someone to be there when i cry, to wake up early and make me waffles and help me make cookies. to tell me im beautiful when i look like a mess, and to just tell me they love me. somebody who would sit and watch my favorite movies with me, or to sit outside and count th stars with me. someone who would peek over my shoulder when im painting and tell me its perfict when i just messed up. somebody that will just be there for me all the time, and be perfictly happy. somebody to help me understand why the ref is waving his arms around when we watch football, and help me figure out whats going on. someone to go fishing with on a saturday aternoon, or to snuggle when we'r watching a scary movie...and then when i make things like what im writing now people think im just complaining, and i truely just need a place to blow off steam, or to let out what im feeling. sorry for all the emotion and this stuff, i know you probly dont care im just hoping that at least somebody out there might understand....