Faking This Smile Isn't Easy

• Artist: iiAzn-GhosttLite
• Description: almost two weeks ago my (ex) girlfriend broke up with me. Cause i hurt her and now I regret it she won't give me another chance and I understand why she wouldn't but she also did the same thing to me three times with me forgiving her. it's hard to move on, and I just wanted to write something. The worst part is I still love her. So I wrote this thing for her.
• Date: 08/30/2009
• Tags: faking smile isnt easy

I heart with my life and all she gave me was crap. She loved me so I didn't what the problem was. When she cheated on me 1st time: When I called her one night for a date she said her mom was ill and she needed to stay home, so that was fine. But she said the same thing for the past 6 weeks. When I called again her mom picked up, I told her sorry for how ill she was, but when I said that she said she wasn't ill. I asked her where my (ex) girlfriend went she said the park. (she went for a walk) When I got there she was heart another guy, I was torn burning_eyes I ran off and she must have heard me cause she ran after me. She said she was sorry and all so I gave her another chance.

When she cheated on me 2nd time: This ones fast: I came into my car one day for my birthday they were throwing me a party when I got there the lights were off, I don't remember it being a suprise party so I turned on the lights and there she was kissing some other guy on a pool table. This time I yelled scream and left. she told me they have been together for 2 months now. Ever since I never went to one of my parties (I was 13 then)

When She cheated on me 3rd time: It was X-mas and I was upstairs. in my room when I came out I say two things: 1. My best best best friend 2. My (ex) girlfriend and 3. them kissing and you know what I did? I went over there and beat the hell out of him. Then she told me shes been with him for 6 months now. And he's been sneaking around kissing her while I'm doing something, gone, or have my back turned.

(happened just about two weeks ago)What I did: I also cheated: I went to my mom's friends place her daughter likes me and she said if I just made out with her once she would stop bothering me. And my (ex) didn't like her so I went to her room and she wanted to make BIG heart then she started my (ex) girlfriend came in and shouted were done forever. I felt so bad I never talked to my mom's friends daughter again. I felt so hurt, I regreted it sooooo much. I felt like someone just tore my heart out ripped it in millions of pieces and put it back in. I am so hurt. I have been heart broken before but I actually really really really really really really really loved her. And since that happened, I never loved again..... crying

Comments

[skimoyane1]

Don't take her back.she's just gonna do that over and over again.they always take them back.just move on.Ur too good for her and she can't seem to get that through her head.

[Rozomund]

I feel bad for you and hope you become better. heart PLease become better cuz now that poem is going to be on my mind for now on. for givingn your heart out 5/5