• Everyone knows the saying. “If you jump, I jump.”

    No one actually means it.

    But us.

    Juhsten, you left me. I don’t know where you are. I don’t even know if you’re alive. But I know I’ll find out. Our eight months was something a lot of people don’t get to experience. Our eight months was almost perfect. Even though we fought, even though you left; I was happy. You were my world, you were my future. I remember our commercial. “Go meat!” I remember your voice. I remember the way you’d make our phone conversations quiet for a second. Then you’d say, “Guess what? I LOVE YOU!” I remember everything. You never judged me; you cared so much for me. You were everything I never knew I always wanted. Do you remember me? Do you still think about me as much as I think about you? Do you still listen to our song and just relive our eight months? You were my first everything. But most importantly you were my first love. I want you back. I want to be in your arms, I want to call you at three AM and have you ask me what “Monstopus melon” is. Or how your mom’s cornea’s got damaged by the car in front of you that night. I miss everything about you. Even our fights. Because after our fights, you would always take me in your arms and tell me how much I meant to you. i remember I was so nervous to talk to you the first time I did, but I’m so glad I did. You gave me life; you taught me how to love. And if I see you again, I won’t be mad. All I want to know is that you are okay, and you are happy. Even if leaving me made you happy. I hope you’re reading this Juhsten Wyatt Clark. I miss you so much.
    emo
    5.5.08
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