• i was only a child
    fabricated and lied to
    i thought he was my dad
    but dads don't just walk away
    they don't pass you and not look
    i was left alone
    with four older brothers
    along with my mother
    he left us with nothing
    in a way I'm glad he's gone
    i became the woman
    i am today because of him
    its all his fault
    and yet i'm thankful
    i may hate him and wish him dead
    but still he's the one that left
    not me not my mother or brothers
    he ripped my heart into pieces
    he shredded my thoughts
    and scattered them on the ground
    he left me confused
    i was in a state of learning
    i needed a father then
    now i don't even care bout him
    my brothers try to communicate
    and so does he, but not to me
    i refuse to be lied to
    to be put behind again
    i won't let that happen to me
    not by him or by anyone
    he has nothing on me
    a sperm a seed what use is that
    you only created half of me
    and yet you destroyed all of me
    i put most of the fallen pieces together
    but some seem to be missing
    i'll find them one day
    i will fill the hole you left inside of me
    you never cared or loved me
    just my brothers never me
    i was the lost one
    i had complications
    you couldn't handle it
    so you played your own game
    tore me and mom apart
    left us to drown in our sorrows
    but that's just what we didn't do
    we got back up and started over
    without you in your thoughts
    we put you off. left you to die
    but still, still your alive
    i couldn't see who you really were then
    but now i see everything your not
    your not a father or a husband
    you never cared bout us
    you wanted to live
    but instead you drown
    you cry day to night
    embark on an endless journey for light
    but darkness surrounds you
    you'll never find the light you want
    i'm not sure if you know why
    this is happening to you
    you'll never understand the pain
    that you brought us that day
    the sorrow, the fright
    you never could
    you don't have the capacity to understand
    your heart will swallow the demons
    and release the angels
    you'll never be free
    not from me or anyone else
    your a dead beat dad
    anyone who knows you
    knows it too
    i know you don't want to admit it
    i know you can't
    its all true
    the hell you caused
    the hearts you lost
    through drugs and liquor
    everything is gone
    you wasted your life
    and still you want us back
    but that will never happen
    i won't let you ruin our lives again
    i'll fight all i can
    i'll put you in jail again

    i sit here on my bed
    listening to my phone ring
    it goes on and on
    i wish it would stop
    i don't know why you waited
    its been so many years
    how long do i have to ignore you
    to get you get the point
    just to make you get a hint
    ever since you left
    when i was just a child
    born to the light at age 3
    how long will it take
    for you to understand
    that you mean nothing to me
    you'll always mean nothing
    i don't need your pity
    i don't need your tears
    i don't need your hugs
    i don't want to hear your voice
    we don't need you around
    we never did